Painful wounds [3/?]
Title: Painful wounds
Author: Rin desuU!!!
Pairing: YamaChii
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, school life, angst?
Disclaimer: YamaChii owns each others!<3333
"Ne Yama-chan?! Would you walk back to home with me?" Chinen ran next to his friend and asked. He really likes to be near Yamada. The older boy looked blankly, as always, to Chinen and nodded, giving him a little smile. Chinen's mood light up and before he noticed himself, he had already embraced the other boy. "Sankyuu soo much!" he exclaímed.
Chinen inhaled Yamada's scent and then he noticed that he hugs him, when immediately he backs away. "Ah, gomene! I didn't mean to, ah i mean like.. I always hugged my friends in the town i lived before.. Forgive me?" Chinen stuttered and looked down, his hair falling to his face. Yamada was taken aback, they both were silent for awhile. Some students looked at them weirdly, but kept going. Since it was the time for students to go home.
Yamada raised his hand slowly, and pat Chinen's head. As the other boy raised his head, he ruffled his hair. "It's okay... I- i just.. No one ever has hugged me.. So i got suprised." Yamada said and Chinen's eyes widened, "EH?! No one has ever hugged you!?" he exclaimed and Yamada nodded. For a second Chinen looked like he was crying, "From now on i'm going to hug you everyday! I promise!" he exclaimed and hugged the other boy again.
Yamada smiled, he never knew such a care would appearance in his life. The older boy carefully wrapped his arms around Chinen's little waist. The latter smiled, "It feels comfortable ne?" he asked. Yamada nodded, he didn't care if Chinen wouldn't see it though. They were like that for awhile. Just standing and enjoying the moment. "Chinen-kun! Oh- eh..." Inoo exclaimed but as he noticed that Chinen wasn't alone he tilted his head and walked to him.
Inoo patted Chinen's shoulder, "Uh, may i interrupt?" he asked and smiled. Chinen quickly turned around, "Inoo-sempai!?" he exclaimed and blushed. Yamada looked coldly at Inoo, "I just wanted to tell you that we have a prom coming up soon, like next week. Friday to be exact. I hope i see you there ne! Mata ashita~" Inoo told him and smiled, then leaving the building. The older boy sighed, "Are you going there?" he asked. Chinen grinned, "I'd love to! But... i've no one to go there with.. Yama-chan, would you be nice?" he pleaded, with his 'kicked puppy eyes'.
Yamada sighed, "I don't think so.." Chinen pouted, "Pweaaase?!" he asked with cute tone, but the other boy shook his head. "Are we going home or not?" the latter asked and pulled Chinen with him. "Is it because you can't dance? I can teach you. Or maybe you like some girl? Ahh, and that's why you can't go with meee~" Chinen kept babbling. Yamada pushed Chinen toward some house's wall and suddenly kissed him forcefully. He got annoyed to the latter's continuing babbling.
Chinen shut his eyes and pushed the other boy away. "..." Yamada got close to Chinen and looked deeply in his eyes. "That was your first kiss right?" he asked and the younger boy nodded. Yamada smiled, "I apologize. But try to not annoy me, okay?" he said sweetly and patted Chinen's head. Chinen's face was all flustered and his poor heart was almost thumbing out of his chest. "Why did you do that?" he asked. Yamada closed his eyes for a brief moment and he looked like he was trying to controll himself.
"It's because i got really annoyed when you talked." he finally said and Chinen's jaw dropped and he froze. They were both unmoving for 15 minutes, "Let's go.." Yamada said and dragged Chinen with him, the latter only nodding. The two of them walked in silence. "Ne, you live here right?" Yamada questioned and the other boy nodded, smiling. Chinen waved goodbye to Yamada and went inside his house. Yamada stood there for awhile. He felt like he didn't deserve a person like Chinen as his friend. Yamada shook his head and walked away.
Yamada was walking toward school and noticed Chinen leaning onto the gate. He walked closer to the other boy. Chinen grinned when he noticed Yamada approaching him. He quickly ran to him and gave him a warm hug. Yamada was taken by suprise. "Ohayou Chinen." he greeted and patted his head. "From now on i'll hug you everyday, i promise! ~" The sentence rang in Yamada's head. The younger boy only smiled and took Yamada's hand, dragging him toward the school building.
"Chinen, why aren't you saying anything?" Yamada asked, and his eyes widened, "It's because i got really annoyed when you talked." he groaned and pulled Chinen behind a corner of the building. He swang the latter around and pushed gently against the wall. "Are you not speaking because of what i said to you yesterday?" Yamada asked and Chinen turned his head to side, his hair falling to his face. When Chinen didn't say anything the older boy palmed his cheek and turned Chinen's head so he could face him.
There were tears in the younger boy's eyes. Yamada's eyes widened, and he froze. "...I want to hear you talking, please say something, Yuri.." he gently said and looked deeply into Chinen's watery eyes. The latter smiled, "Gomenasai. I didn't want to make you annoyed to me, so i kept quiet.." he said carefully. "I should apologize you. I said so rudely to you, even though you were so nice to me." Yamada confessed and clenched his fist. Chinen grinned, "Betsuni! You can call me Yuri if you want ~" he exclaimed, his mood doing a change.
Yamada frowned, "Geez! You're two faced!" he said and turned around, walking toward the main doors. Chinen grinned and ran after him, "Nope, i just want Yama-chan to like me ~" he said cheerfully and began to walk next to his friend. Yamada smiled a little and ruffled the latter's hair.
The day went by, Chinen sometimes spending his time with Inoo and Hikaru. Yamada could only watch them from far. Yamada was sitting in an empty classroom since everyone had clubs to attend after school and he didn't. The door slid open and Yamada sent a quick glance to it, suprised when he saw Chinen entering the room. "Oh here you are Yama-chan!" he said and took the seat next to him. "Why are you alone here? Don't you like to be out when sun is shining?" Chinen asked and looked questionly at the other boy. Yamada stared blankly out of the window. "I wanted to be alone.." he said tuneless.
Chinen's mood darkened, "So am i bothering you?" he asked. Yamada shook his head, "I feel calm when you're near me.. I'm not scared now. That's why i want you to be beside me." he said calmly. Chinen grinned, "Really? I'm so happy! How near i have to be?" he asked excited and leaned really close to the other boy. Yamada laughed lightly, he himself, taken by suprise. He had never laughed before, Chinen was suprised only because Yamada's laugh has sounded so adorable.
Chinen smiled, "I love the way you laugh. You should laugh more often!" he said adoringly and looked deeply into the other boy's eyes. Yamada palmed Chinen's cheek gently, and kissed it lightly. Once again, Chinen blushed to a deep shade of red. The older boy embraced Chinen. "Maybe i could live for you... I need you.." he mumbled to Chinen's hair, embracing him more tightly. Chinen's eyes widened. Did he hear correct? Yamada said that he needed him.
Yamada leaned back a little, just enough that he could face Chinen. The expression on Yamada's face was gentle and loving. Not like what it have been earlier. "Yuri...Will you let me be by your side?" he asked with undescribably gentle tone. Chinen felt like fainting, he couldn't think of doing anything else but kissing Yamada's lips. When Yamada had kissed him, he had really liked it, a lot. The feeling of the other boy's lips against his owns, was something he had never felt before. It didn't matter to him if they were both boys. Or if someone would see them.
They remained that position for a while, and when finally breaking away Yamada's face wasn't the gentle and loving anymore. Chinen gulped, "Sumimasen! I really liked, well loved it when you kissed me and just now you were so cute and i couldn't think of doing nor saying anything else!" he babbled. Yamada blinked and frowned, "No no no.. This is not right. This shouldn't be happening." he said to himself and ran his hand through his hair. Chinen got worried, "Eh, what shouldn't happen?" he asked carefully and stroked Yamada's hair. The older boy stood up and hit Chinen down onto floor.
"Don't come near me! You'll suffer because of me... I'm sorry that i let you close to me." he yelled and hit his fist to wall. Chinen was confused, what was he talking about. Why couldn't he be near to Yamada? It didn't make any sense. Chinen stood up and hugged Yamada from behind, clutching tightly to his shirt. The older boy's eyes widened, "Don't touch me! Leave me alone... i can't let anyone near me." he shouted again. Chinen only held him tighter, suddenly he screamed and fell on his knees, holding his head and trembling.
Yamada quickly turned around and gasped. "Stop! You can't remember!" he hissed and took a hold of Chinen's hands. The latter's eyes stared blankly to emptiness, his face having a suffering expression. Yamada groaned, frustrated. Yamada pushed Chinen to the floor and hold his arms above his head. He attacked Chinen's lips, and roughly slipped his tongue to the latter's mouth, massaging Chinen's tongue with his own. Chinen stopped trembling and answered to the kiss. Yamada broke it, they stared at each other for a second.
"You were the boy... You hit me to the ground when i tried to talk to you.. I couldn't do anything. Why did you let me near to you? You were so harsh and rough back then. Why? I'd wanted to ask you more and comfort you, but why did you send me away.." Chinen asked suffering. Yamada frowned, "You're not supposed to know.. I can't let anyone suffer because of me again... For your on good, leave me alone." he said. The younger boy lifted his eyebrow, "Yama-chan.. What have happened to you?" he questioned carefully.
Yamada stared at Chinen for a long time, should he tell or not. Then he sighed, "... Ever since when i was born, my mother loved me. No actually she adored me. But my dad didn't accept me. Unfortunately i noticed that i had a talent to do things what normal humans couldn't do. Of course mum were just more proud of me. Apparently some people like me had borned before i did. And those people wants every possible talents to them. So they are like collecting people with special talents. However that one day when i came home from a walk, i saw three men, wearing dark purple clothes, talking with my mum and dad. Mum looked at me, horrified, her eyes widen and watery. Those three men turned around and they all stared at me. I just stand there looking back at them. The men smirked at same time. Dad glanced at me coldly before nodding to those men. The three of them advanced me, mum trembled and she began to cry. Don't take him, please! Take me instead!, she screamed and ran before me. I was cunfused, i had no idea what was happening. One of those man's slapped my mum's cheek, with such a force that she flew to the wall. Dad was furious, You promised to not hurt us if we give that to you!!, he shouted. Mum stood up and again came in front of me protectively. Please, leave him alone! He haven't done any- and then one of those men's, like a streak of lightning, pierced mum's breast with his bare hands. With a quiet whimper mum slumped to the floor, right in front of me. There were a lot of blood. You bastard! This is all your fault, if you weren't born she'd be alive!!!, dad yelled to me, he obviously hated me. He was about to attack me but one of those man's grabbed his wrist, spinning him around and throwing him right toward our fire place. Dad's head crushed onto the hard brick. I looked at those men's, and ran to them, they all were about to hit me but i... needed only a fraction of second to poke their chest's above their heart. After it they began puking blood. After it i ran away as fast as i could. Anyhow, they got me. They kept me in a dark room. I didn't eat, drink, talk or anything i was there unmoving, for years. Monster's like you shouldn't be alive. No one could ever love you. You killed your own mother and father. Was the whispers i heard over and over again. But then they began to hit, bite and scratch me everyday. My wounds from outside healed as quickly as they wounded. There were so many of them, they tortured me. And the worst thing, they began to rape me. I stopped growing old when i was 17. They kept me there for years. Somehow, i finally escaped. I began to live like normal kids. Go to school and stuff. But i never let anyone near me. If you ever leave from here. If you ever let someone love you nor near you. They'll suffer like you did. Keep that in mind monster. That is why i shouldn't be telling you this.. That is why you should never be near me." Yamada told the whole story without moving, his expression didn't change even for once.
Chinen held his tears. "Yama-chan... You should have told me before." he whispered. Yamada's expression turned to gentle and loving. He embraced Chinen. "I'm so sorry.. But really i want to feel loved, i want to get healed. I need someone beside me. But i don't want to let anyone suffer like i did. Normal humans can't survive at least one night there. So you must forget me." Yamada explained and looked deeply into Chinen's eyes. The younger boy refused to look back. "I don't want to forget." he said, looking down.
Yamada groaned, "Stop it. I didn't ask what do you want." he complained. "You've different personalities. The other side of you is rude, you can't let anyone near you because they'll suffer like you. The other side is gentle and loving, that side is what you really want. You really want to get love and care. But you can't take risks." Chinen said coldly. Yamada frowned, "Stop, don't act like you know me." he hissed. Chinen chuckled, "But i do know you.." he said adoringly. The older boy hit the floor just beside the other boy's head.
"You know. You are the only one who has seen my weak side." he said. Chinen smiled, "It's not your weak side. I think it's more like your strong side. Then you can say what you really think and feel." he whispered to Yamada's ear. The latter's eyes widened, how can Chinen understand him so easily. How can he attack to the weak spot. Why did he remember him? "It's because i care for you." Chinen said. The older boy frowned, "You can read minds don't you? Are you one of them?" he asked.
Chinen shook his head, "I can't read minds... You've varied a lot when you met me." that wasn't a question. "The day when you erased my memory of you. You weren't like this. You had the hard appearance of yours." he explained. Yamada looked coldly at Chinen. "Why aren't you afraid?" he asked. The younger boy smiled and wrapped his arms around the other boy's body, laying Yamada on him. "I feel safe with you.. I do feel cold under your presence though." Chinen said and Yamada shivered, "Gentle touch feels so good ne?" the younger boy asked.
Yamada nodded, "You shouldn't be doing this.." he sighed. Chinen began to stroke the latter's hair, "I feel sorry for your past. I want that your future will be full of love and care." he said. Chinen had understood Yamada's acting and mind, he has always been good at reading people. He is not sure what does he feel for the older boy yet. But somehow he can't let him alone. Something in him has gotten Chinen to him. Indeed, the younger boy was unsure about Yamada before but now he can't but trust him.
Chinen kissed the top of Yamada's head gently. "We should propably go somewhere else." Chinen suggested but the other boy held him tighter, "I want to stay like this a little longer.." he whispered. Chinen nodded but sat up, Yamada looked at him desperately. The younger boy smiled and leaned to wall, patting his lap. Yamada raised his eyebrow but went closer to the other boy. Chinen chuckled, "Here, come on my lap~" he said sweetly. The older boy sat onto Chinen's lap and they stared each other for awhile.
Chinen adores the older boy. He is good looking, sexy, obviously good at anything except expressing himself. He slowly leaned closer and softly pressed his face to Yamada's neck. The older boy wrapped his arms around Chinen's little waist. Yamada smiled, "You smell like strawberries.." he said and sniffed the other boy's hair. Chinen giggled, "You like strawberries then?" he asked and Yamada nodded.
"Do you love me?"
---TO BE CONTINUED---
Hello world i'm back XD Okay i wasn't anywhere ;P
I managed to write a long chappie
And yes as you may notice i couldn't help my YamaChii biasness here xP
Anyways, as always comments are love!<3333
*HUGGLES*
Author: Rin desuU!!!
Pairing: YamaChii
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, school life, angst?
Disclaimer: YamaChii owns each others!<3333
"Ne Yama-chan?! Would you walk back to home with me?" Chinen ran next to his friend and asked. He really likes to be near Yamada. The older boy looked blankly, as always, to Chinen and nodded, giving him a little smile. Chinen's mood light up and before he noticed himself, he had already embraced the other boy. "Sankyuu soo much!" he exclaímed.
Chinen inhaled Yamada's scent and then he noticed that he hugs him, when immediately he backs away. "Ah, gomene! I didn't mean to, ah i mean like.. I always hugged my friends in the town i lived before.. Forgive me?" Chinen stuttered and looked down, his hair falling to his face. Yamada was taken aback, they both were silent for awhile. Some students looked at them weirdly, but kept going. Since it was the time for students to go home.
Yamada raised his hand slowly, and pat Chinen's head. As the other boy raised his head, he ruffled his hair. "It's okay... I- i just.. No one ever has hugged me.. So i got suprised." Yamada said and Chinen's eyes widened, "EH?! No one has ever hugged you!?" he exclaimed and Yamada nodded. For a second Chinen looked like he was crying, "From now on i'm going to hug you everyday! I promise!" he exclaimed and hugged the other boy again.
Yamada smiled, he never knew such a care would appearance in his life. The older boy carefully wrapped his arms around Chinen's little waist. The latter smiled, "It feels comfortable ne?" he asked. Yamada nodded, he didn't care if Chinen wouldn't see it though. They were like that for awhile. Just standing and enjoying the moment. "Chinen-kun! Oh- eh..." Inoo exclaimed but as he noticed that Chinen wasn't alone he tilted his head and walked to him.
Inoo patted Chinen's shoulder, "Uh, may i interrupt?" he asked and smiled. Chinen quickly turned around, "Inoo-sempai!?" he exclaimed and blushed. Yamada looked coldly at Inoo, "I just wanted to tell you that we have a prom coming up soon, like next week. Friday to be exact. I hope i see you there ne! Mata ashita~" Inoo told him and smiled, then leaving the building. The older boy sighed, "Are you going there?" he asked. Chinen grinned, "I'd love to! But... i've no one to go there with.. Yama-chan, would you be nice?" he pleaded, with his 'kicked puppy eyes'.
Yamada sighed, "I don't think so.." Chinen pouted, "Pweaaase?!" he asked with cute tone, but the other boy shook his head. "Are we going home or not?" the latter asked and pulled Chinen with him. "Is it because you can't dance? I can teach you. Or maybe you like some girl? Ahh, and that's why you can't go with meee~" Chinen kept babbling. Yamada pushed Chinen toward some house's wall and suddenly kissed him forcefully. He got annoyed to the latter's continuing babbling.
Chinen shut his eyes and pushed the other boy away. "..." Yamada got close to Chinen and looked deeply in his eyes. "That was your first kiss right?" he asked and the younger boy nodded. Yamada smiled, "I apologize. But try to not annoy me, okay?" he said sweetly and patted Chinen's head. Chinen's face was all flustered and his poor heart was almost thumbing out of his chest. "Why did you do that?" he asked. Yamada closed his eyes for a brief moment and he looked like he was trying to controll himself.
"It's because i got really annoyed when you talked." he finally said and Chinen's jaw dropped and he froze. They were both unmoving for 15 minutes, "Let's go.." Yamada said and dragged Chinen with him, the latter only nodding. The two of them walked in silence. "Ne, you live here right?" Yamada questioned and the other boy nodded, smiling. Chinen waved goodbye to Yamada and went inside his house. Yamada stood there for awhile. He felt like he didn't deserve a person like Chinen as his friend. Yamada shook his head and walked away.
Yamada was walking toward school and noticed Chinen leaning onto the gate. He walked closer to the other boy. Chinen grinned when he noticed Yamada approaching him. He quickly ran to him and gave him a warm hug. Yamada was taken by suprise. "Ohayou Chinen." he greeted and patted his head. "From now on i'll hug you everyday, i promise! ~" The sentence rang in Yamada's head. The younger boy only smiled and took Yamada's hand, dragging him toward the school building.
"Chinen, why aren't you saying anything?" Yamada asked, and his eyes widened, "It's because i got really annoyed when you talked." he groaned and pulled Chinen behind a corner of the building. He swang the latter around and pushed gently against the wall. "Are you not speaking because of what i said to you yesterday?" Yamada asked and Chinen turned his head to side, his hair falling to his face. When Chinen didn't say anything the older boy palmed his cheek and turned Chinen's head so he could face him.
There were tears in the younger boy's eyes. Yamada's eyes widened, and he froze. "...I want to hear you talking, please say something, Yuri.." he gently said and looked deeply into Chinen's watery eyes. The latter smiled, "Gomenasai. I didn't want to make you annoyed to me, so i kept quiet.." he said carefully. "I should apologize you. I said so rudely to you, even though you were so nice to me." Yamada confessed and clenched his fist. Chinen grinned, "Betsuni! You can call me Yuri if you want ~" he exclaimed, his mood doing a change.
Yamada frowned, "Geez! You're two faced!" he said and turned around, walking toward the main doors. Chinen grinned and ran after him, "Nope, i just want Yama-chan to like me ~" he said cheerfully and began to walk next to his friend. Yamada smiled a little and ruffled the latter's hair.
The day went by, Chinen sometimes spending his time with Inoo and Hikaru. Yamada could only watch them from far. Yamada was sitting in an empty classroom since everyone had clubs to attend after school and he didn't. The door slid open and Yamada sent a quick glance to it, suprised when he saw Chinen entering the room. "Oh here you are Yama-chan!" he said and took the seat next to him. "Why are you alone here? Don't you like to be out when sun is shining?" Chinen asked and looked questionly at the other boy. Yamada stared blankly out of the window. "I wanted to be alone.." he said tuneless.
Chinen's mood darkened, "So am i bothering you?" he asked. Yamada shook his head, "I feel calm when you're near me.. I'm not scared now. That's why i want you to be beside me." he said calmly. Chinen grinned, "Really? I'm so happy! How near i have to be?" he asked excited and leaned really close to the other boy. Yamada laughed lightly, he himself, taken by suprise. He had never laughed before, Chinen was suprised only because Yamada's laugh has sounded so adorable.
Chinen smiled, "I love the way you laugh. You should laugh more often!" he said adoringly and looked deeply into the other boy's eyes. Yamada palmed Chinen's cheek gently, and kissed it lightly. Once again, Chinen blushed to a deep shade of red. The older boy embraced Chinen. "Maybe i could live for you... I need you.." he mumbled to Chinen's hair, embracing him more tightly. Chinen's eyes widened. Did he hear correct? Yamada said that he needed him.
Yamada leaned back a little, just enough that he could face Chinen. The expression on Yamada's face was gentle and loving. Not like what it have been earlier. "Yuri...Will you let me be by your side?" he asked with undescribably gentle tone. Chinen felt like fainting, he couldn't think of doing anything else but kissing Yamada's lips. When Yamada had kissed him, he had really liked it, a lot. The feeling of the other boy's lips against his owns, was something he had never felt before. It didn't matter to him if they were both boys. Or if someone would see them.
They remained that position for a while, and when finally breaking away Yamada's face wasn't the gentle and loving anymore. Chinen gulped, "Sumimasen! I really liked, well loved it when you kissed me and just now you were so cute and i couldn't think of doing nor saying anything else!" he babbled. Yamada blinked and frowned, "No no no.. This is not right. This shouldn't be happening." he said to himself and ran his hand through his hair. Chinen got worried, "Eh, what shouldn't happen?" he asked carefully and stroked Yamada's hair. The older boy stood up and hit Chinen down onto floor.
"Don't come near me! You'll suffer because of me... I'm sorry that i let you close to me." he yelled and hit his fist to wall. Chinen was confused, what was he talking about. Why couldn't he be near to Yamada? It didn't make any sense. Chinen stood up and hugged Yamada from behind, clutching tightly to his shirt. The older boy's eyes widened, "Don't touch me! Leave me alone... i can't let anyone near me." he shouted again. Chinen only held him tighter, suddenly he screamed and fell on his knees, holding his head and trembling.
Yamada quickly turned around and gasped. "Stop! You can't remember!" he hissed and took a hold of Chinen's hands. The latter's eyes stared blankly to emptiness, his face having a suffering expression. Yamada groaned, frustrated. Yamada pushed Chinen to the floor and hold his arms above his head. He attacked Chinen's lips, and roughly slipped his tongue to the latter's mouth, massaging Chinen's tongue with his own. Chinen stopped trembling and answered to the kiss. Yamada broke it, they stared at each other for a second.
"You were the boy... You hit me to the ground when i tried to talk to you.. I couldn't do anything. Why did you let me near to you? You were so harsh and rough back then. Why? I'd wanted to ask you more and comfort you, but why did you send me away.." Chinen asked suffering. Yamada frowned, "You're not supposed to know.. I can't let anyone suffer because of me again... For your on good, leave me alone." he said. The younger boy lifted his eyebrow, "Yama-chan.. What have happened to you?" he questioned carefully.
Yamada stared at Chinen for a long time, should he tell or not. Then he sighed, "... Ever since when i was born, my mother loved me. No actually she adored me. But my dad didn't accept me. Unfortunately i noticed that i had a talent to do things what normal humans couldn't do. Of course mum were just more proud of me. Apparently some people like me had borned before i did. And those people wants every possible talents to them. So they are like collecting people with special talents. However that one day when i came home from a walk, i saw three men, wearing dark purple clothes, talking with my mum and dad. Mum looked at me, horrified, her eyes widen and watery. Those three men turned around and they all stared at me. I just stand there looking back at them. The men smirked at same time. Dad glanced at me coldly before nodding to those men. The three of them advanced me, mum trembled and she began to cry. Don't take him, please! Take me instead!, she screamed and ran before me. I was cunfused, i had no idea what was happening. One of those man's slapped my mum's cheek, with such a force that she flew to the wall. Dad was furious, You promised to not hurt us if we give that to you!!, he shouted. Mum stood up and again came in front of me protectively. Please, leave him alone! He haven't done any- and then one of those men's, like a streak of lightning, pierced mum's breast with his bare hands. With a quiet whimper mum slumped to the floor, right in front of me. There were a lot of blood. You bastard! This is all your fault, if you weren't born she'd be alive!!!, dad yelled to me, he obviously hated me. He was about to attack me but one of those man's grabbed his wrist, spinning him around and throwing him right toward our fire place. Dad's head crushed onto the hard brick. I looked at those men's, and ran to them, they all were about to hit me but i... needed only a fraction of second to poke their chest's above their heart. After it they began puking blood. After it i ran away as fast as i could. Anyhow, they got me. They kept me in a dark room. I didn't eat, drink, talk or anything i was there unmoving, for years. Monster's like you shouldn't be alive. No one could ever love you. You killed your own mother and father. Was the whispers i heard over and over again. But then they began to hit, bite and scratch me everyday. My wounds from outside healed as quickly as they wounded. There were so many of them, they tortured me. And the worst thing, they began to rape me. I stopped growing old when i was 17. They kept me there for years. Somehow, i finally escaped. I began to live like normal kids. Go to school and stuff. But i never let anyone near me. If you ever leave from here. If you ever let someone love you nor near you. They'll suffer like you did. Keep that in mind monster. That is why i shouldn't be telling you this.. That is why you should never be near me." Yamada told the whole story without moving, his expression didn't change even for once.
Chinen held his tears. "Yama-chan... You should have told me before." he whispered. Yamada's expression turned to gentle and loving. He embraced Chinen. "I'm so sorry.. But really i want to feel loved, i want to get healed. I need someone beside me. But i don't want to let anyone suffer like i did. Normal humans can't survive at least one night there. So you must forget me." Yamada explained and looked deeply into Chinen's eyes. The younger boy refused to look back. "I don't want to forget." he said, looking down.
Yamada groaned, "Stop it. I didn't ask what do you want." he complained. "You've different personalities. The other side of you is rude, you can't let anyone near you because they'll suffer like you. The other side is gentle and loving, that side is what you really want. You really want to get love and care. But you can't take risks." Chinen said coldly. Yamada frowned, "Stop, don't act like you know me." he hissed. Chinen chuckled, "But i do know you.." he said adoringly. The older boy hit the floor just beside the other boy's head.
"You know. You are the only one who has seen my weak side." he said. Chinen smiled, "It's not your weak side. I think it's more like your strong side. Then you can say what you really think and feel." he whispered to Yamada's ear. The latter's eyes widened, how can Chinen understand him so easily. How can he attack to the weak spot. Why did he remember him? "It's because i care for you." Chinen said. The older boy frowned, "You can read minds don't you? Are you one of them?" he asked.
Chinen shook his head, "I can't read minds... You've varied a lot when you met me." that wasn't a question. "The day when you erased my memory of you. You weren't like this. You had the hard appearance of yours." he explained. Yamada looked coldly at Chinen. "Why aren't you afraid?" he asked. The younger boy smiled and wrapped his arms around the other boy's body, laying Yamada on him. "I feel safe with you.. I do feel cold under your presence though." Chinen said and Yamada shivered, "Gentle touch feels so good ne?" the younger boy asked.
Yamada nodded, "You shouldn't be doing this.." he sighed. Chinen began to stroke the latter's hair, "I feel sorry for your past. I want that your future will be full of love and care." he said. Chinen had understood Yamada's acting and mind, he has always been good at reading people. He is not sure what does he feel for the older boy yet. But somehow he can't let him alone. Something in him has gotten Chinen to him. Indeed, the younger boy was unsure about Yamada before but now he can't but trust him.
Chinen kissed the top of Yamada's head gently. "We should propably go somewhere else." Chinen suggested but the other boy held him tighter, "I want to stay like this a little longer.." he whispered. Chinen nodded but sat up, Yamada looked at him desperately. The younger boy smiled and leaned to wall, patting his lap. Yamada raised his eyebrow but went closer to the other boy. Chinen chuckled, "Here, come on my lap~" he said sweetly. The older boy sat onto Chinen's lap and they stared each other for awhile.
Chinen adores the older boy. He is good looking, sexy, obviously good at anything except expressing himself. He slowly leaned closer and softly pressed his face to Yamada's neck. The older boy wrapped his arms around Chinen's little waist. Yamada smiled, "You smell like strawberries.." he said and sniffed the other boy's hair. Chinen giggled, "You like strawberries then?" he asked and Yamada nodded.
"Do you love me?"
---TO BE CONTINUED---
Hello world i'm back XD Okay i wasn't anywhere ;P
I managed to write a long chappie
And yes as you may notice i couldn't help my YamaChii biasness here xP
Anyways, as always comments are love!<3333
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