Now What?
I'm at the point where i'll do just about anything to have a feeling.
Maybe it's cause i'm freezing and alone and i haven't slept by myself that much lately. Maybe it's because i'm bad at experiencing things while their happening....
I can't let go. Why can't i /let go/?
I don't want to cry, or crumble, or need. I want to give and give and give. I want pushing and shoving and hurt.
I'm very, very lucky. I am very, very lucky because I have a very sweet lady. And there are words i need to say to her, and i'm very, very lucky because she will listen. She listens, and feels and knows and makes me melty-soft and good for a moment.
Sleep. Sleep and dreams and love. Here i am, this is me.
Maybe it's cause i'm freezing and alone and i haven't slept by myself that much lately. Maybe it's because i'm bad at experiencing things while their happening....
I can't let go. Why can't i /let go/?
I don't want to cry, or crumble, or need. I want to give and give and give. I want pushing and shoving and hurt.
I'm very, very lucky. I am very, very lucky because I have a very sweet lady. And there are words i need to say to her, and i'm very, very lucky because she will listen. She listens, and feels and knows and makes me melty-soft and good for a moment.
Sleep. Sleep and dreams and love. Here i am, this is me.