The one with a rant
I keep saying no to going to the guys house. WHY? I like him, I think he likes me, and I keep bloody saying no. God, four years ago I was SO much more confident and stuff, and now all I think about is bloody Paul. I feel like I'm getting over him, but then just as I think yea that's it, I can move on, something enters my head that reminds me of him and I'm right back where I started. I think maybe I have to appreciate the fact that I will always miss him cos he was my first love and everything. But I DO want another relationship. If only so that when Paul calls me (And I KNOW he will) I can rub his nose in it and tell him to fuck off cos I'm with someone else and see how he likes it... Yea yea I know, I'm a bitch. I don't care.
OK I AM going to meet the guy tonight. No matter what. He only lives like ten seconds away anyways, so if I hate him I can just leave and be home straight away. ARGE! NERVOUS!
OK I AM going to meet the guy tonight. No matter what. He only lives like ten seconds away anyways, so if I hate him I can just leave and be home straight away. ARGE! NERVOUS!