The one with jealousy

[rilj84]

Well the worst thing that could possibly have happened has happened. Paul's girlfriend Wendy is pregnant. WHY? Why did God take my baby away, but bless HER with a child? Why can't I have a baby? I mean, she is still smoking weed and taking coke and drinking, and I never did any of that stuff, so why did I have to lose my baby and she gets to have one? It's not fair, and I don't understand why this has happened. I just feel so... Jealous. And I have now realised that it really is over between me and Paul. They are going to have a connection now for the rest of their lives, and I hate her so much that even if, in the future, he did want to get back together with me, there's now his child to think about, and I don't wanna be in that situation anymore. So they're going to be together for the rest of their lives and I will just be forgotton about. The past three years will eventually not even be a memory for him anymore.

I'm gonna have to go shopping and max out my credit card cos I need cheering up.