darling i can't replace you.
oh mannnn..
it's one of those nights.
fuck.
honestly, considering the crap ive been put through lately i think i've been dealing quite well. i try to keep myself busy and distracted, but then every once in a while reality hits me. and it hits hard. and i sit here alone, feeling like a failure, and feeling lonely..when everyones out at the bar getting wasted and with tons of people and and partying with friends. i get this overwhelming feeling in the pit of my stomach. a feeling of having no control. a feeling of not being good enough. i feel so robotic and numb to life recently. what did i do so wrong to have things end up this way. ugh i just get so angry, and hurt, and frustrated and need to vent.
fuck this.
fuck school, and having HOLDS which will fuck everything up for choosing classes.
fuck commuting.
fuck this project i cant focus on.
fuck not being able to sleep.
fuck ally.
fuck uncertainty.
fuck selfishness.
fuck sitting alone.
fuck being used.
fuck my internet for not working right.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
and fuck you.
k done.
oh yeah ALIX FIND YOUR PHONE BABY!
it's one of those nights.
fuck.
honestly, considering the crap ive been put through lately i think i've been dealing quite well. i try to keep myself busy and distracted, but then every once in a while reality hits me. and it hits hard. and i sit here alone, feeling like a failure, and feeling lonely..when everyones out at the bar getting wasted and with tons of people and and partying with friends. i get this overwhelming feeling in the pit of my stomach. a feeling of having no control. a feeling of not being good enough. i feel so robotic and numb to life recently. what did i do so wrong to have things end up this way. ugh i just get so angry, and hurt, and frustrated and need to vent.
fuck this.
fuck school, and having HOLDS which will fuck everything up for choosing classes.
fuck commuting.
fuck this project i cant focus on.
fuck not being able to sleep.
fuck ally.
fuck uncertainty.
fuck selfishness.
fuck sitting alone.
fuck being used.
fuck my internet for not working right.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
and fuck you.
k done.
oh yeah ALIX FIND YOUR PHONE BABY!