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[rikytikyrika]

last night before we hung up i told you i love you...then once i put the phone down i was wondering why those words came out. i should have just told you the truth. that i love someone else way more. someone who tells me that i am beautiful and strong. that tells me i am smart and is there for me no matter what. you see when you use to do those things for me, i loved you the most, but now that its over ive forgotten who the real love of my life is. not you. no, not anymore. i love myself way more. and for that reason, i will not be dragged in the mudd anymore. im picking myself back up, dusting myself off, and carrying on. with my beautiful smile that makes me love myself so much. and yea maybe sometimes choking back some tears, but that only will make me love myself more, because i am human and i am beautiful and i love myself too much.

i wish you could have loved me the way i love me.