Snow oh no!
It's snowing out grrness lol yeah i hate snow it's icky bad mesa love summer..it's so warm ;-;, well another day of hell tomorrow, damn school *grumbles* i have been avoideing it alot lately, jigging being sick or what not i just don't want to go, i want to drop out but then what!? so i think i needa go see the concler before i do something stupid yeah, the way i see it is i'm not good enough, i'm stupid, and will never be anything better i'll never succeed and i'll be lucky to finish grade 12 by the age of 30, it pisses me off how people think i don't try fuck you! thats all i have to say cause hell i do but it just never seems good enough, i'm a fuck up end of story leave me the fuck alone!i learned to accept what i am and i wish others would accept me for it aswell, i have no life no future no hope NOTHING! so why bother trying to make something of it, i may aswell just stop, no not kill myself that is dumber then dumb, theres no point in going on about it, i'm nothing but one big fuck up in more ways then one. And for all that "JOKE" about me being stupid yeah it may seem funny and i might laugh but no more FUCK OFF i hate it, and i'm sick of it, if you wish to continue to joke about me being dumb then don't be surprised when i get up and say "Fuck off!" cause i'v had enough, i kept everything bottled up and now it's all spilling out, i hate who i am and i learned to deal with it, you all think you know me and treat me like i'm dandy but frankly you can go fuck yourself! i'm sick of it all just leave me the fuck alone!!!! i am not a mean person but at the moment i'm loseing my mind and if pushed the wrong way i WILL snap at you and frankly i won't care what you think, call me a bitch hate me despise me what ever, cause if i said something then you deserved it more then likely and if you think you didn't then i woulden't have yelled in the first place so obviously if i did then you DID deserve it so fuck you if you wanna whine over it! your not the only one in the world with problems, i am not refering to one person here this is for all that may read this, and if i didn't yell or none here matches you then hi have a nice day. anyways i'm off to bed, to stay awake for hours and think if i were the type to cry i would sob but i don't so i won't, blah! later and for the record i am not mad, i just had to get this in the open, and sure i am a bit depressed and moody so yeah i am on the edge and will be fore a while.