dancing ... =.= uhhhh
"Dancing with the feet is one thing, but dancing with the heart is another"
I found that quote while I was searching for a good quote for my newly made wallpaper
this thing is too large for my desktop =.= something really came up to me when I saw this ... I don't know how, when, where, or why but somehow ... it made me want to write this thing ... hohohooooo ~
well... back then when I was young, I was dancing around like crazy at our house YES!! WITH RANDOM STEPS THAT MY BODY COMES UP WITH but really, I never thought of it as a hobby. I went to Elementary and High School without really thinking about dancing and stuff... it was just like, "I'm gonna dance because I have to."
I didn't focus on other stuffs... I tried writing ... it was fun but I think I really fail at it, though my friends say that it was fine. I draw but... that's if my hands really want to ... and I sing, I once became a part of the choir but since I have to study in Manila, I stopped. I was living in the world that my parents want to... they would always say that I got that ability to surpass my sister if I just study hard and stuff ... I want to study... but really ... i don't want to live in a life that my sister is living right now ! She is a right brained person and I am a left brained one ... I want my life to be exciting.
I took up the course that my father wants me to take. Become a teacher and teach the subject you want to teach. I was never against it because I don't have a dream. I've never established a goal back then... and Don't ask me why because I don't know.
I started my life in college, far from home and with new peers around me. I found an interesting organization that I think I'll fit in.
and this is where it all started !! >.< ahahahahha
That time, it was like dancing is a must ! yes! whether you know how to or don't that didn't matter ... you need to dance.
hoho ... I was afraid but really, I guess I could do it ... there's no harm in trying ...
I joined practices ... and I admit it ... I suck at picking up steps (up until now I'm like that) I don't know if I want to continue or not. I tried practicing at home since there were videos provided (one thing that I love) I practiced at home to get it right and on the next days ... I got it ... but ... there were new dances ... and it's like its only 3 days before the event ... I can't learn on rush ! it's one thing that I hate the most ... but I was afraid that if I don't try my sempai will get mad. I was afraid of the things that they might think or say (I'm always like that). That time ... I've hated dancing for the reason that it was hard but ... I also loved it for the reason that I can enjoy it with friends (YUYA ERA!! I MISS YOU! >.<) We pursued hard on it ... it's already water break but we continued practicing to not to waste time ... (one thing that the sempais loved about us) and on the day of event... we really did it ! >.< It was fun and at the same time it gives me the feeling of fulfillment. It was the first time I danced so carefree.
but I never thought that I would really continue dancing ...
Last Collecticon 2010 ... we were asked to perform ... Yes ! with hundreds of people staring at you ! >.<
I was nervous back then ... I don't know why ... I still remember the steps but I was afraid. but since I can't turn back anymore... I will. It was the first time I danced with lots of people watching ... I messed up but I think it was fine ... I don't know if I want to dance again on a place like that or not.
I don't know but after those things that happened ... it was like dancing has become one big part of my life ...
I searched and learned new dances and day by day I think I was improving ...
I love feeling ...
my 1st year was over ...
being a kouhai (google the meaning if you don't know ...) was also over...
this year ... I started to become a sempai ...
this time ... I need to be serious ... (though it's really not bad to stay as childish as you want)
Tanabata is coming and we need to prepare again ...
I was asked to teach the kouhais the dance steps (well some of em')
I never tried to teach . idk if they will learn from me ... but... I guess they did ...
I sucked at it but finally ... I was able to share something to them and enjoy it with them ...
while looking at them, I was like seeing myself before. Desperately trying and enjoying as well
it was cool ! I was lucky I experienced it ... I can't forget the feeling while dancing with them ...
It became part of my life and I don't know when will I stop ...
hoho ...
I want to improve... learn more and perform more ...
Thanks to those people who made me try ...
Who PATIENTLY taught me ...
I found something that I would be proud of ...
I found something that would stop me saying that my life is worthless ...
Some of you actually never saw me dance ... I wish you could... though I'm still improving ...
and you would eventually see me messing up >.< yahohoho ...
anyways ... this is how I changed for almost a year .. and I could say that .. being in college was not really that hard.. >.< it was fun!
hoho .. btw ...
I really want to dance in the Youth Ministry ... but I really don't think I could handle it while in college =.=
I wish God would give me a chance ~
that's alllllllllll ~~
hoho ...
if you read it thanks ...
comments and any violent reactions are appreciated ...
wo.ot wo.ot .. who inspired my to write such thing?
KAKERU!!! >.< joke ... it was amane (ruirui) hahhaa !!
well that's all >.< ....
Uetaku ... what's with that face ?
Dori is as cute as ever ~ *runs*
riri