Bleh
I am really hot and in a really bad mood. I don't know why my mood sucks so much it just kinda does. I got hit on two days ago while babysitting which made me look like a horrible babysitter. I still care about Zack even after the entire situation, I don't really want to since it is pointless but I just can't stop caring about him. It really upsets me since I care about him but he could seems to not feel the same way. I dunno.......I am tired, hot, annoyed, feeling somewhat pointless, and pretty much like all the feelings and the care I put into other people just gets thrown down. I had an awesome night last night though since I went to the Avalon with Billy to see the USA Finals of the Battle Of the Bands. Alot of the bands were awesome. I dunno sometimes it is relieving when I walked in circles at the school because I was able to throw away all of my emotions for a while. I care for all of my friends alot and am glad they have been here for me it is just now I don't know what to do about Zack or about my family. I am so sick of Ryan it just pisses me off completely.....I never even like to be at my own house anymore since he is always there. I am going to stop now.....bye.