gah ...
Last night was kinda bad. but I was good and didn't do anything bad.
I reeeeeaally felt like finding alcohol or asking for it. But I didn't :P
It hurt thinking about it, but in the long run it's good.
I haven't drank heavily since the time I hurt too many people and wrecked the keyboard. whic is *thinks* 2 weeks today, actually. I also haven't harmed myself in three or four weeks. So far everything's going good. I just really don't want to be a fucking stupid idiot and slip up. Drink a little too much one night. End up doing stupid stuff.
Anyway! I might be having a halloween parteh again this year. Who the fuck is gonna actually turn up, iunno. I'm planning on inviting Alix (teh girl alix!) erm ... iunno.
So I guess. If any of my personal friends (loz-loz, bexs etc) wanna come i'll send j00 an invitation. that if I'm actually allowed. This is still Julians house and I've only got the okay from my mother so far.
hmm. I might go insane playing dmc later. Just sit there playing. For hours. I did that with final fantasy 9 a while back. Unfortunately, Michael (no, not the michael most of us know ... an old b/f of mine ^^;;) was there and we just sat there from 10am until 8pm and mum was like "RHIANNA!! your dinner's ready" I hadn't noticed how long i'd been playing and he had just sat there for that long with his arm round me watching O______o hehe. I tend to do that if I come across a good game. I do that with FF7 a lot o__O;;
Stupid brother deleted my decent saves though. He deleted the one where I had knights of the round, gold chocobo's and high levels. He left the one where I had nothing to do on the game other than go through sephys cave. At level 45-50 characters (uber-low tifa, cait sith, yuffie, and barret) o_o so what did i do? I went playing it anyway. Mum was kinda watching and seph fucking kicked my damn ass. I go to the last one you have to actually fight though. The weird ... thing ... with three halo's O.o
ANYWAY i've been rambling again! ack. last night went to my head. THANKS TO MIKE. you had to start saying "sex" too much and got me saying it all night, didn't you?!? grr. heh ... nice dreams. .. havent got a clue why i remember me pulling a face at my dad, and him going "yes! you can have coffee" i mean ... where does that come between me and my nice dreams ...? hahaha ... weird.
I reeeeeaally felt like finding alcohol or asking for it. But I didn't :P
It hurt thinking about it, but in the long run it's good.
I haven't drank heavily since the time I hurt too many people and wrecked the keyboard. whic is *thinks* 2 weeks today, actually. I also haven't harmed myself in three or four weeks. So far everything's going good. I just really don't want to be a fucking stupid idiot and slip up. Drink a little too much one night. End up doing stupid stuff.
Anyway! I might be having a halloween parteh again this year. Who the fuck is gonna actually turn up, iunno. I'm planning on inviting Alix (teh girl alix!) erm ... iunno.
So I guess. If any of my personal friends (loz-loz, bexs etc) wanna come i'll send j00 an invitation. that if I'm actually allowed. This is still Julians house and I've only got the okay from my mother so far.
hmm. I might go insane playing dmc later. Just sit there playing. For hours. I did that with final fantasy 9 a while back. Unfortunately, Michael (no, not the michael most of us know ... an old b/f of mine ^^;;) was there and we just sat there from 10am until 8pm and mum was like "RHIANNA!! your dinner's ready" I hadn't noticed how long i'd been playing and he had just sat there for that long with his arm round me watching O______o hehe. I tend to do that if I come across a good game. I do that with FF7 a lot o__O;;
Stupid brother deleted my decent saves though. He deleted the one where I had knights of the round, gold chocobo's and high levels. He left the one where I had nothing to do on the game other than go through sephys cave. At level 45-50 characters (uber-low tifa, cait sith, yuffie, and barret) o_o so what did i do? I went playing it anyway. Mum was kinda watching and seph fucking kicked my damn ass. I go to the last one you have to actually fight though. The weird ... thing ... with three halo's O.o
ANYWAY i've been rambling again! ack. last night went to my head. THANKS TO MIKE. you had to start saying "sex" too much and got me saying it all night, didn't you?!? grr. heh ... nice dreams. .. havent got a clue why i remember me pulling a face at my dad, and him going "yes! you can have coffee" i mean ... where does that come between me and my nice dreams ...? hahaha ... weird.