I'm sad.
I'm feeling nostalgic.
I'm so, so happy for having been around for so many years in this fandom. I'm so blessed to have been in the position of watching over the boys since 2003. I saw them when they were struggling to get by, I saw them when all they had were midnight time slots.
I saw them when they became national darlings.
I was bursting with pride when they announced their first Asia tour. I cried when they got their first Dome concert. I cheered when they got Kokuritsu, their second Asia tour, their 10th anniversary, Kouhaku. I wept when they got to Hawaii.
I watched so many of their dramas. Sang along to their songs. The happy ones, the darker ones, the goofy ones.
I'm so, so happy to have been a part of this. I've gained so much. They gave me the best friend I've ever had.
I wish for the boys that grew into men, to pursue happiness and gain what they seek.
I wish for Ohno to get a modicum of privacy and respite.
I wish for Jun to get married and have the babies he wants.
I wish for Sho to get some sleep.
I wish Nino to not retreat into games forever, but to hone his craft, to receive all the acting awards in the world.
I wish for Aiba to keep smiling.
I wish for them to get families. To build their homes.
To come back to each other and face the same direction again.
Most of all, I want to give each of them a hug and thank them, for the good times and especially the hard times.
I want to thank them for Very Danger.
For LEADER YAY.
For Chan-Ogu.
For chesuto, for Captain, for the Rowing Saga, for air guitar, for maximum umai, for the curiosity team, for Ai-lando, for Zero, for memory games, for magic, for Totoro, for comforting, for kindness, for hugs and love and tears and everything in between. For dedication and loyalty and friendship above and beyond.
For dream.
I want to thank them for everything they've done.
For me. For my dear friends. For the hundreds of thousands of hearts they've touched.
I'm so grateful for all these years.
I hope they know how much happiness they've given the world for 20 years, and I hope they can give themselves the same gift.
Let's celebrate them the next two years. They deserve nothing less. And when -if- they return, they will have been worth the wait.
I'll be sad for a while, but that's okay.
Smile again.
ありがとう.
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