The twilight.
So, this is usually when I make a journal entry. After something leaves a bad taste in my mouth. It's usually about a friend or a person I care deeply for mistreating me (in my mind). And, as I think about it...It's really quite silly. Why should anyone know what my little problems are? They'll never meet me, or get to know me. I am shouting to an empty alley. As such, this will be my final journal entry. Twilight is a time of day when darkness and light share the same space. Twice a day this happens. Once at the beginning...the dawn, and once at the end... the dusk. It is the end of this journal, and the beginning of mental independence for myself. I am weary...from talking friends out of stupid decisions. I am weary from pouring my heart and honest feelings to people only to be ignored. Or, have the unintentional offensive things I say NOT be ignored, ever. I am weary of friends bickering...and forcing me to take sides... I refuse.
I am weary of all these things. I'm not appreciated and I shouldn't stand for it. I'm not here to cushion anyone's ego...even though I've been wandering around like a lost puppy doing just that. I have a lot to offer, both as a friend, and as more than a friend, yet no one seems to acknowledge this. That is fine...as with the truth, so long as I know it, that's all that matters. I'm withdrawing from everything until I am treated as a friend and not as a novelty.
I apologize for any rustled hairs, if this final entry is offensive in anyway...just chalk it up to me being a horrible person, I'm washing my hands of it.
Sayonara LJ community,
Tyrone "Riketz" Hayes.
I am weary of all these things. I'm not appreciated and I shouldn't stand for it. I'm not here to cushion anyone's ego...even though I've been wandering around like a lost puppy doing just that. I have a lot to offer, both as a friend, and as more than a friend, yet no one seems to acknowledge this. That is fine...as with the truth, so long as I know it, that's all that matters. I'm withdrawing from everything until I am treated as a friend and not as a novelty.
I apologize for any rustled hairs, if this final entry is offensive in anyway...just chalk it up to me being a horrible person, I'm washing my hands of it.
Sayonara LJ community,
Tyrone "Riketz" Hayes.