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its been a while since i updated... but since then everythings been shit. my grades are dropping, i'm losing sleep, my family is pissed at me... i dunno what to do. today i threw a shoe at my brother for no reason. i've lost one of my best friends over who knows what the hell what. probably me being an ass. she says shes given me the power but it wasn't meant for me. this shit is really breaking me down. i wanna cry... she says she'd rather not be friends w/ me cause we are constantly at each others throats. i wish it'd just go back to the way it was...shes befriended one of her best friends just cause of me and i have no clue why. she says everything i say is fake... love is a strong word in my eyes. if i ever say it you better believe i mean it. if i say i care about you i most definiately do. i don't understand it all i'm so confused. i guess i'll go waste away to some emo shit or something...