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What's to say, other than 'I made it out alive.'?
The past... 3 years have been a long road. In regards to character development, and my career, I've made a lot of progress.
I can safely say, that when I turn 18, I became selfish, secretive, deceptive and closed off. I got in trouble frequently, and hurt people I claimed I cared about.
I've made mistakes I will never repeat , and certain impulses I will again never act upon.
I was many things. I was more a burden than a blessing; I know this. But I wasn't the monster you made me out to me.
Certain things and events that I've been accused of, are probably not true. Those who were close to me knew fact from fiction. I'm nore here to try and defend myself, nor am I about to debunk anyone.
I was a scared, confused, rattled and heart-broken teenager. I'm not justifying my behaviour, but please understand that frightful circumstances drive people to do frightful things. Not common to their usual nature.
I was too close to the situation to see how my behavior affected those I loved.
I want people to know that I'm sorry, if I've hurt you in the past. This isn't 'Guilt' or 'Regret'... This is 'Remorse' for how I've acted towards you.
I did love you. All of you (you know who you are). Though I realise my actions say otherwise, I meant it. I loved you with every bit of my heart, and thanked God for bringing you into my life.
I am sad about many things, but I cannot and will not be sad about having you in my life.
I know that now, it's too late for me to ever try and fix things or to be forgiven, I hope someday I paths will cross and I can tell you just how much you meant to me, and how happy I am I can think about all the happy times we shared.
All the laughs.
All the hugs.
All the kisses.
All the big dreams we shared.
I love you.
You can never be replaced.
The past... 3 years have been a long road. In regards to character development, and my career, I've made a lot of progress.
I can safely say, that when I turn 18, I became selfish, secretive, deceptive and closed off. I got in trouble frequently, and hurt people I claimed I cared about.
I've made mistakes I will never repeat , and certain impulses I will again never act upon.
I was many things. I was more a burden than a blessing; I know this. But I wasn't the monster you made me out to me.
Certain things and events that I've been accused of, are probably not true. Those who were close to me knew fact from fiction. I'm nore here to try and defend myself, nor am I about to debunk anyone.
I was a scared, confused, rattled and heart-broken teenager. I'm not justifying my behaviour, but please understand that frightful circumstances drive people to do frightful things. Not common to their usual nature.
I was too close to the situation to see how my behavior affected those I loved.
I want people to know that I'm sorry, if I've hurt you in the past. This isn't 'Guilt' or 'Regret'... This is 'Remorse' for how I've acted towards you.
I did love you. All of you (you know who you are). Though I realise my actions say otherwise, I meant it. I loved you with every bit of my heart, and thanked God for bringing you into my life.
I am sad about many things, but I cannot and will not be sad about having you in my life.
I know that now, it's too late for me to ever try and fix things or to be forgiven, I hope someday I paths will cross and I can tell you just how much you meant to me, and how happy I am I can think about all the happy times we shared.
All the laughs.
All the hugs.
All the kisses.
All the big dreams we shared.
I love you.
You can never be replaced.