Feb 24, 2005 23:38
i am the only one who will be here for myself in the long run,
so I'd better make sure i can deal with myself
thats my philosophy
and sometime i'll have friends who respect me as well.
but for now, at least I respect myself enough to stand up for myself. . . only for now its still in my head and not outloud.
i think of my sister.
maybe she could act as my stand in for a few scenes.
kristen and mark came to visit me for real
i feel a little less hostile