Thankful for the Disease.....
Odd title, huh? I'll come to it shortly.
I've seen a couple of other posts about others Thanksgivings and what they are thankful for. I thought I would toss mine in as well, a little late, but still....
First and foremost, I'm thankful for Brittany. She has been the one constant in my life for well over a decade now, and I could not imagine a better partner or friend than she. She has put up with my shit, my family, my music and illness with style and a strength I can only hope to emulate. I'm thankful she *gets* me: far more than I deserve.
I'm thankful for my friends, both old and new and near and far. And by extension (not to be glib) I'm thankful for Facebook. It has let me catch a glimpse of the lives of the people I otherwise might never have "talked" to again. Reflections of what we were and flashes of the future. There are a few people, just two or three I would love to talk to, to say "You were right. I understand now. Instead of feeling sorry for myself I should have been thinking how to keep you in my life in one way or another." Those are the few I suppose would never want to hear from me again. The ones that are in my life now I am very happy about. Thank you.
As the title of this post says, as odd as it sounds, I'm thankful for my disease. When I found out about the Diabetes I was rocked to my very core. The only thing I could think of was "My life as I know it is over." And I have never been so happy to be right about that. Since then, almost a year now, I've quit drinking, started cycling and lost near up to 40 lbs. To top that off I have been feeling *good* - about myself about everything. A spiritual awakening may be going to far, but that's close to what I feel. I've been more productive in my music, which had stagnated as much as the rest of me. I began planning things farther then when I was going to get my next case of beer. Would I like not to have the Diabetes at all? You're fucking right, I would. But I am thankful I found out about it in time to do something about it, young enough to know there's almost a whole life time ahead to enjoy myself with out trying to kill myself. So that's why I am Thankful for my Disease.
Thanks for hanging through this long. I hope everybody had a happy Thanks giving as well.
PS: I'm also thankful for Porcupine Tree and Rush.
I've seen a couple of other posts about others Thanksgivings and what they are thankful for. I thought I would toss mine in as well, a little late, but still....
First and foremost, I'm thankful for Brittany. She has been the one constant in my life for well over a decade now, and I could not imagine a better partner or friend than she. She has put up with my shit, my family, my music and illness with style and a strength I can only hope to emulate. I'm thankful she *gets* me: far more than I deserve.
I'm thankful for my friends, both old and new and near and far. And by extension (not to be glib) I'm thankful for Facebook. It has let me catch a glimpse of the lives of the people I otherwise might never have "talked" to again. Reflections of what we were and flashes of the future. There are a few people, just two or three I would love to talk to, to say "You were right. I understand now. Instead of feeling sorry for myself I should have been thinking how to keep you in my life in one way or another." Those are the few I suppose would never want to hear from me again. The ones that are in my life now I am very happy about. Thank you.
As the title of this post says, as odd as it sounds, I'm thankful for my disease. When I found out about the Diabetes I was rocked to my very core. The only thing I could think of was "My life as I know it is over." And I have never been so happy to be right about that. Since then, almost a year now, I've quit drinking, started cycling and lost near up to 40 lbs. To top that off I have been feeling *good* - about myself about everything. A spiritual awakening may be going to far, but that's close to what I feel. I've been more productive in my music, which had stagnated as much as the rest of me. I began planning things farther then when I was going to get my next case of beer. Would I like not to have the Diabetes at all? You're fucking right, I would. But I am thankful I found out about it in time to do something about it, young enough to know there's almost a whole life time ahead to enjoy myself with out trying to kill myself. So that's why I am Thankful for my Disease.
Thanks for hanging through this long. I hope everybody had a happy Thanks giving as well.
PS: I'm also thankful for Porcupine Tree and Rush.