Life Takes a Shit On Us All....
I don't even know how to start...or where to start. Today has been one of the most fucked up days ever. I've been on the east coast on vacation, seeing friends, being in a wedding, spending time with my family. Today I come back and catch a sledgehammer to my chest. There's really no easy way of saying this, but the one person who has been the center of my life for the past year and a half is no longer in it due to her choosing. I honestly have never felt so lost. I gave up my entire life, everything I've ever known to dare to trust love and let it all ride. I picked up everything I could fit into my Civic including the most precious cargo...her. We had an amazing time seeing the united states as we sped off to our new life together. No more computer screens or late night phone calls...just her and I together at last. We had our ups and our downs like any normal couple would but we would always make up. Maybe things just started getting to comfortable, I dunno. Call me crazy but I felt good knowing that i could just unwind and completely be myself around her...no inhibitions whatsoever. She was the love of my life and around her I felt completely at ease. I guess it was that comfort that might have started things off getting fucked up, but who knows. The only thing I'm left with is empty hands tonight where she should be. I refuse to jump on here and shit talk, even though it's so unbelieveably appropriate right now. I've just never felt this lost and this alone...the rug has officially been yanked out from under me and I'm left standing here fucking empty. I dunno if anyone even still reads this shit, but if you do...Kellie and I are no longer together...the age of Mykellie has sadly come to an end...I just don't know what to do anymore.....