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Tonight is the Tacky Horror show.
Four years ago, I had probably one of the worst nights of my life.
I remember that Liz and I were pre-partying, drinking vodka and hitting some lines of coke (yes, when I was 19 I did hard drugs). I kept drinking in the car, and my memory fades at making Jeb pull over so I could pee on the side of the road.
I woke up the next morning to Brittany's face, telling me that I needed to go to auditions (I was director of Slugs at the time)
From what I was told, I was licking, biting, running around, crawling up the aisles, puking in the boys bathroom, puking on the security guards hands, and then sobbing and crying for hours until the show ended. I have no memory of this. Honestly, the lowest night of my life, I have never blacked out that hard, nor been so destructive.
One of the reasons I have such admiration and appreciation for Shannon and Jared, and Bawdy Caste is whole, is that they let my dumb ass back in the next show. I wasn't banned, sometimes made fun of, but never felt like I fucked up entirely. Sure, sometimes I am till made fun of (common, I LICKED the entire cast) but I never was made to feel like a total screw up because of it. They accepted my apology, and moved on.
Tonight I will be performing in the show that I should have seen. I actually am having a hard time not crying, because I can't believe how far I have come since then.
Yes sometimes I have crazy drunk nights, and I apologize to those who have had to deal with that. But on a whole, I am very proud of who I have become.
Thank you Bawdy Caste for giving me a second chance. You showed that someone can fuck up, and still become part of your family.
Four years ago, I had probably one of the worst nights of my life.
I remember that Liz and I were pre-partying, drinking vodka and hitting some lines of coke (yes, when I was 19 I did hard drugs). I kept drinking in the car, and my memory fades at making Jeb pull over so I could pee on the side of the road.
I woke up the next morning to Brittany's face, telling me that I needed to go to auditions (I was director of Slugs at the time)
From what I was told, I was licking, biting, running around, crawling up the aisles, puking in the boys bathroom, puking on the security guards hands, and then sobbing and crying for hours until the show ended. I have no memory of this. Honestly, the lowest night of my life, I have never blacked out that hard, nor been so destructive.
One of the reasons I have such admiration and appreciation for Shannon and Jared, and Bawdy Caste is whole, is that they let my dumb ass back in the next show. I wasn't banned, sometimes made fun of, but never felt like I fucked up entirely. Sure, sometimes I am till made fun of (common, I LICKED the entire cast) but I never was made to feel like a total screw up because of it. They accepted my apology, and moved on.
Tonight I will be performing in the show that I should have seen. I actually am having a hard time not crying, because I can't believe how far I have come since then.
Yes sometimes I have crazy drunk nights, and I apologize to those who have had to deal with that. But on a whole, I am very proud of who I have become.
Thank you Bawdy Caste for giving me a second chance. You showed that someone can fuck up, and still become part of your family.