u know

[riekid]

i get really mad sometimes.
mostly because im so confused

about how i feel
& why

i dont get how 2 people can get so annoyed one minute
and the next everything falls into place.

i guess maybe thats the problem.
maybe i dont want things to just fall into place.
like val said (thanx for the talk btw)
maybe what i really want is the chaos...where someone goes crazy over me. just the whole passion, romance and emotion about it.

urgh. countdown to NY