Prepared?
Well, I've done all that i could to get ready for tomorrow for now. I've gathered my nerves, I wrote my note last night with some of Ed's help. I know when and where I'll go to see him. I know somewhat what I'm going to say when I see him. If he has questions, I shall answer. If my face turns beat red I'll try to force my way through. I will look him in the eyes. I will try not to stare at the floor. For me this isn't just about telling someone I have a crush on them. I never before felt such caring emotions towards another unless it was my family. And just in general I want to become better in conveying my emotions into words. I know sometimes my facial expressions might sometimes not cover all of what I may feel, but at least I would still have my words.
Tomorrow I'll wake up at 9 to get ready for lab as I usually do on Tuesdays. I'll get to school 10-10;30 depending how much I drag my feet or how long I have to wait for the next train. Sometime after 11 Brian will come into the cyber cafe to waste time on his break between classes. I'll say hi smile, probably look towards the table or floor. Ask him if I could speak with him outside in the hall or closer towards the steps. They're right next to the damn room. XP He'll ask what's up, probably wondering wtf is my malfunction. That's when I give him the note. Of course before then I'll try to say something. After he reads the note, well, who knows really. It's up to anyone at that point. ^_^; Well, him really. =P All I can do up to that point is just hope I don't fuck things up. *Sweatdrop* Ah well, I suppose I could say wish me luck people if I actually believed in luck. ^_^; I know whatever will happen will happen if he and/or I deems it. But for now I'll leave you al with something funny Ed said and a funny drawing I made yesterday~~! Minor note. <3333 the eyes!
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Hm hm~ I'm starting to feel jittery again. ^^;
Ezu: Oh?
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Yeah. I always get like this before hand though.
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: The first person I ever asked out my hands were shaking like a crackhead's hands would shake.
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Though now adays I just feel jittery. ^^;
Ezu: How sweet...
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: XP
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: stfu
Ezu: XD
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Well, at least if they do shake he and I will have shaky hands. lol
Ezu: Oh?
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Yeah. I noticed his hands shakes a little from time to time.
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Not very often though.
Ezu: Well... maybe he does like you and he wants to tell you, but he's too nervous and everytime he tries to his hands shake and he chickens out?
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Perhaps. Brian really is a dork.
Ezu: Heh
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Once when his headphones wouldn't work we plugged in mine to listen to something funny on the computer. So we had to put our heads reeeeeeally close to it to just barely hear. I'd start to get the tinglly feeling. Though he pulled away after a few minutes. I never figured out why. ^_^;
Ezu: Maybe he'd get a tingly feelin in pants...
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: lol
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: That's fucked up and yet funny. XD
Ezu: And possibly true
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: I wouldn't know since I don't look at people's crouches. XP
Tomorrow I'll wake up at 9 to get ready for lab as I usually do on Tuesdays. I'll get to school 10-10;30 depending how much I drag my feet or how long I have to wait for the next train. Sometime after 11 Brian will come into the cyber cafe to waste time on his break between classes. I'll say hi smile, probably look towards the table or floor. Ask him if I could speak with him outside in the hall or closer towards the steps. They're right next to the damn room. XP He'll ask what's up, probably wondering wtf is my malfunction. That's when I give him the note. Of course before then I'll try to say something. After he reads the note, well, who knows really. It's up to anyone at that point. ^_^; Well, him really. =P All I can do up to that point is just hope I don't fuck things up. *Sweatdrop* Ah well, I suppose I could say wish me luck people if I actually believed in luck. ^_^; I know whatever will happen will happen if he and/or I deems it. But for now I'll leave you al with something funny Ed said and a funny drawing I made yesterday~~! Minor note. <3333 the eyes!
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Hm hm~ I'm starting to feel jittery again. ^^;
Ezu: Oh?
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Yeah. I always get like this before hand though.
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: The first person I ever asked out my hands were shaking like a crackhead's hands would shake.
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Though now adays I just feel jittery. ^^;
Ezu: How sweet...
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: XP
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: stfu
Ezu: XD
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Well, at least if they do shake he and I will have shaky hands. lol
Ezu: Oh?
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Yeah. I noticed his hands shakes a little from time to time.
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Not very often though.
Ezu: Well... maybe he does like you and he wants to tell you, but he's too nervous and everytime he tries to his hands shake and he chickens out?
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Perhaps. Brian really is a dork.
Ezu: Heh
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: Once when his headphones wouldn't work we plugged in mine to listen to something funny on the computer. So we had to put our heads reeeeeeally close to it to just barely hear. I'd start to get the tinglly feeling. Though he pulled away after a few minutes. I never figured out why. ^_^;
Ezu: Maybe he'd get a tingly feelin in pants...
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: lol
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: That's fucked up and yet funny. XD
Ezu: And possibly true
Sutookaa_no_Cloud: I wouldn't know since I don't look at people's crouches. XP