Don't ask me why I'm crying, I'm not gonna tell you what's wrong
I'll just sit on your lap for ten dollars a song...
Today was alright. I was supposed to hang out with Chris, but that fell through when Cody called and said that we're opening for Alter this Friday. So I went to his house and practiced for about four hours. We made some progress. I had a panic attack, no big thing, but I started thinking about how I could be a liability to this band...and it made me sick. So I just don't know what to do yet.
I ended up going to the concert last night. Kutless was awesome. I had alot of fun, we (Chris, Amanda, and I) went and did donuts in the snow. And we went to McDonalds. And popped a tire. Which SUCKED because our fun was over.
I was supposed to be with Amanda tonight, but mom said no, and I didn't really want to get shitfaced anyway. Everyone's right, I don't want to end up like my mom. Or a junkie. I can tell she's disappointed though. I'm just trying to better myself, you know? Weed and Alcohol don't really do anything for me. They just make me look stupid, like I can't find enough enjoyment out of what I have without having to alter my sense of reality. What good would that do?
Tuesday, my guitar is back in service, and I'm really excited. I can't wait to hug Ziggy again. Me'sa misses him. Dallas is gonna teach me some Ani songs, because that's really what I'm interested in, is being great like her, or Tori, or Alanis, or Jewel. Funk, folk, and feminism. I can't wait. Mom said I can get an electric/acoustic soon, because the sound is so much better on an acoustic. I'm thinking about asking cody about teaching me bass. I dunno though. Maybe some time later or so.
There was something I actually wanted to say...urgh...
OH YEAH. I changed my screenname. It is MyAxeIzMyBiotch. Like the ICP song, except it's really my axe is my buddy. I am not friends with my axe. My axe does MY bidding. Word. :flashes an awkward gang symbol:
Well, I'm out kiddies. Anyone in the tri-county area want to hang out?
Today was alright. I was supposed to hang out with Chris, but that fell through when Cody called and said that we're opening for Alter this Friday. So I went to his house and practiced for about four hours. We made some progress. I had a panic attack, no big thing, but I started thinking about how I could be a liability to this band...and it made me sick. So I just don't know what to do yet.
I ended up going to the concert last night. Kutless was awesome. I had alot of fun, we (Chris, Amanda, and I) went and did donuts in the snow. And we went to McDonalds. And popped a tire. Which SUCKED because our fun was over.
I was supposed to be with Amanda tonight, but mom said no, and I didn't really want to get shitfaced anyway. Everyone's right, I don't want to end up like my mom. Or a junkie. I can tell she's disappointed though. I'm just trying to better myself, you know? Weed and Alcohol don't really do anything for me. They just make me look stupid, like I can't find enough enjoyment out of what I have without having to alter my sense of reality. What good would that do?
Tuesday, my guitar is back in service, and I'm really excited. I can't wait to hug Ziggy again. Me'sa misses him. Dallas is gonna teach me some Ani songs, because that's really what I'm interested in, is being great like her, or Tori, or Alanis, or Jewel. Funk, folk, and feminism. I can't wait. Mom said I can get an electric/acoustic soon, because the sound is so much better on an acoustic. I'm thinking about asking cody about teaching me bass. I dunno though. Maybe some time later or so.
There was something I actually wanted to say...urgh...
OH YEAH. I changed my screenname. It is MyAxeIzMyBiotch. Like the ICP song, except it's really my axe is my buddy. I am not friends with my axe. My axe does MY bidding. Word. :flashes an awkward gang symbol:
Well, I'm out kiddies. Anyone in the tri-county area want to hang out?