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i can't sleep.
i can see the train station from my bedroom window, and for the past hour i have layed my head against that window and watched the trains come and go. it is somewhat soothing, but at the same time.. watching all those people come and go.. i myself have never felt more alone.
i don't know what is wrong with me.. what has been wrong with me for the past week now. i just know i'm not happy with the place in my life that i'm in right now. i thought about dropping out of school today.. like seriously dropping out of school. i know that it would be a bad decision, everyone would be disappointed in me.. i'd be disappointed in myself.. but the idea of it actually seemed comforting, as if that would make me happier then i have been.
if i'm not working by next weekend, then i have to get out of here. i think i may go to philly for the weekend. i know jesse and maria would let me stay with them for a few nights.. and they won't bug me to know what's wrong. i miss them too, so i think it would be nice to visit.
xoxo