new brunswick here i come..

[ridingwithdeath]

so i leave for new brunswick in about 9 hours and my mind is honestly a mess. i really don't feel at home anywhere anymore. i feel like i'm looking for something that doesn't exhist.. i don't even know what i'm looking for anymore.. i just know i haven't found it. don't get me wrong, i'm excited to go back. but we had awards night at wonderland last night and i had to say goodbye to the boys and i'm really going to miss them. i didn't think i'd miss them all so much but i will. but John, JL, Joe, and some of the other guys are gonna take me out for my 21st birthday. that should be interesting.. haha.. JL said they're gonna get me so drunk i'm gonna be puking my brains out.

well i'm no where near done packing.. so i better get moving. i guess next time i update i'll be in new brunswick. maybe then i'll feel better about everything.

xoxo