What are you doing?
My life has never felt so ambiguous.
The state of my relationship, school, where I'm living, not to mention The Future.
I have no idea how any of it is going to work out. I have little to no plan. This semester is nearly over and after that, I'm basically done with school except for a single class in the Spring. How to best use the rest of my time?
I need to figure out what I REALLY want to do and try to work towards it or else I am not going to feel fulfilled. I want to experience the world in the deepest way possible and constantly challenge myself at the same time.
The biggest question out there really is whether I should stay in New Orleans. The more I think about it the more I truly believe that I don't think I could have as much fun or have the unique experiences that are possible here anywhere else in America. But do I want to go to UNO for grad school? Do I even want to go to grad school? Do I want to be further sucked in and stay here always & forever? New Orleans is not a place of progress or productivity, but it's so wonderfully special. Should I try to become master urban planner or sell custom-made fanny packs for a living and live in a trailer in the lower 9th ward? Other??
I just need to infuse myself with a little more motivation and ambition and try to do whatever I can. There's only so much I can do - the rest is up to chance and fate.