Haunted
Ask me what that scar is
I'll tell you that's where I cut my heart out
I didn't need it anymore
Told all my dreams it was nice knowing ya
You were good for me when I was young
and needed hope
Now I keep going on just momentum
habit
And I'm all grown up,
Time to give up,
and get real ain't that what growing up is all about?
So get out, dreams; you're dragging me down.
God what happened to me?
Where did I go?
Ran down the road less travelled;
now where the heck am I?
Tried to outrun all the parts of me
I didn't need
and damn if the bad things aren't tougher
than the things I wanted to keep
outran innocence, outran hope and love
but damn if pain and confusion didn't keep right up
The old people all laugh at me and say that's life
but none can go into the hows and whys
Well what if I don't accept that?
I could take a lot of sucking if anyone could tell me why
Then I remember as an adult,
I'm supposed to be the one who knows all these things now
I'm one of the old people now,
only I'm not laughing
Another inside joke I didn't get
missed the memo
fell for it again
every time someone acts like my friend
But I digress.
Got this one dream that keeps coming back
says it's got nowhere else to go
Made me wonder what happened to the others
Are they like sad little kittens at the pound
cowering at the back of cold metal cages
lonely and afraid
wondering what they did that no one wants them anymore?
Did at least a few of them make it home
where someone will cherish and encourage them?
Is there an afterlife for the ones that didn't?
Is there some judgement for them
where they have to stand before the Dream God
judge and jury
try to explain why they weren't good enough to stay,
accept him as their lord and savior and beg
forgiveness?
When they aren't the ones that failed.
I am.
This one dream, I used to wish for the day I could make it real, boy
Now I just wish I hadn't fed it that one time.
Faced by the wreckage of it's failure every turn I make
gave up on myself
stopped believing in all my dreams
but this damned dream still believes in me
I'll tell you that's where I cut my heart out
I didn't need it anymore
Told all my dreams it was nice knowing ya
You were good for me when I was young
and needed hope
Now I keep going on just momentum
habit
And I'm all grown up,
Time to give up,
and get real ain't that what growing up is all about?
So get out, dreams; you're dragging me down.
God what happened to me?
Where did I go?
Ran down the road less travelled;
now where the heck am I?
Tried to outrun all the parts of me
I didn't need
and damn if the bad things aren't tougher
than the things I wanted to keep
outran innocence, outran hope and love
but damn if pain and confusion didn't keep right up
The old people all laugh at me and say that's life
but none can go into the hows and whys
Well what if I don't accept that?
I could take a lot of sucking if anyone could tell me why
Then I remember as an adult,
I'm supposed to be the one who knows all these things now
I'm one of the old people now,
only I'm not laughing
Another inside joke I didn't get
missed the memo
fell for it again
every time someone acts like my friend
But I digress.
Got this one dream that keeps coming back
says it's got nowhere else to go
Made me wonder what happened to the others
Are they like sad little kittens at the pound
cowering at the back of cold metal cages
lonely and afraid
wondering what they did that no one wants them anymore?
Did at least a few of them make it home
where someone will cherish and encourage them?
Is there an afterlife for the ones that didn't?
Is there some judgement for them
where they have to stand before the Dream God
judge and jury
try to explain why they weren't good enough to stay,
accept him as their lord and savior and beg
forgiveness?
When they aren't the ones that failed.
I am.
This one dream, I used to wish for the day I could make it real, boy
Now I just wish I hadn't fed it that one time.
Faced by the wreckage of it's failure every turn I make
gave up on myself
stopped believing in all my dreams
but this damned dream still believes in me