OOC: LOG! Ibu Shinji and Kamio Akira!
Who: Ibu Shinji and Kamio Akira
What: Awkwardness and Confessions
Where: Kamio's house
When: This past Tuesday night
Why: There was still awkward.
Notes: Your characters weren't there and didn't see this. Srsly.
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Shinji: *heads over to kamio's house sometime after dinner but before it's late* *knocks on the door*
Kamio: *answers the door and invites Shinji in* Hey.
Shinji: hey akira-kun *steps into the house and takes off his shoes*
Kamio: *closes the door behind him* What movie do you wanna watch?
Shinji: *shrugs* i don't really care what movie we watch though it would probably be better if we don't watch anything scary because i don't really want to have nightmares and i'm only good with scary movies if i'm able to watch something not scary afterwards or it's still daylight out though i guess you probably already knew that but maybe an action movie or an anime would be good but i don't really mind i'll watch whatever you want to watch
Kamio: I just bought Transformers, is that okay?
Shinji: transformers would be more than okay akira-kun i haven't seen it yet and i've been wanting to well i did see part of it the other week because my sisters were watching it but i had homework to get done so i didn't stay for all of it
Kamio: Yeah, okay awesome. *takes the movie out of its case and puts it in the DVD player* Do you want anything to drink or anything?
Shinji: *sits down on the couch* sure i'll have something to drink did your mom buy any more of those juiceboxes that i really like because if she did i'll take a couple of those otherwise just whatever you have is fine
Kamio: *goes to the kitchen and checks the fridge* Yeah, we have those. *grabs a bunch and tosses a few at Shinji*
Shinji: *catches them and opens up one to start drinking* thanks akira-kun
Kamio: No problem. *smiles* *starts the movie with a sigh, still weirded out by the weird vibe that is definitely still in the air*
Shinji: *tries to focus on the movie but keeps subtly eyeing kamio out of the corner of his eye*
Kamio: *can sort of feel Shinji watching him and tries to catch him in the act*
Shinji: *spends the next half hour focused solely on the movie and his juice*
Kamio: *sort of pouts, because Shinji usually mumbles through movies too*
Shinji: *would mumble but then might say something entirely inappropriate and yes he's acting weird and knows kamio is going to call him on it when the movie is done*
Kamio: *watches the movie, but isn't really absorbing what's going on*
Shinji: *starts looking at kamio out of the corner of his eye again*
Kamio: *doesn't react, although he can feel Shinji looking*
Shinji: *is torn between wanting the movie to end and wanting it to continue on forever so he doesn't have to face kamio's accusations again*
Kamio: *eventually, the movie does end* *watches the credits roll by*
Shinji: *is still being strangely silent* *credits almost over* i'll be right back akira-kun i have to go to the bathroom *gets up and spends twenty minutes just sitting in the bathroom*
Kamio: *knows that Shinji can't really be in the bathroom for that long* *knocks on the bathroom door* ....Shinji? ....you okay???
Shinji: *flushes the toilet (that he didn't use except to sit on) and washes his hands* i'm fine akira-kun
Kamio: *frowns* ...okay... *waits outside the bathroom for Shinji to come out*
Shinji: *comes out a minute later not quite meeting kamio's eyes* can we head upstairs instead of sitting in the livingroom unless you were wanting to watch another movie which i guess would be fine
Kamio: *is eying Shinji suspiciously* ...yeah, okay, we can go up to my room if you want.
Shinji: *heads up to kamio's room and starts poking around at his cd collection, looking for something to listen to*
Kamio: *plops down on his bed and watches Shinji without saying anything. The silence is awkward and almost palpable*
Shinji: *isn't sure how much longer he can go without saying anything before one of them loses it* *totally doesn't want to ruin their friendship either though by saying the wrong thing*
Kamio: *can be quiet for a very long time, if need be* *lies down on his bed and sighs*
Shinji: *has looked through all the cds 3 times now* *finally starts mumbling* akira-kun maybe you are right about me acting weird and i'm sorry that i was trying to say i wasn't when it was pretty obvious i have been but i don't know how no what no maybe how is the word i am looking for but what could work too if i decided to go in that direction *trails off mumbling to himself over whether to use what or how*
Kamio: *sits up a little* You don't know how or what to what, Shinji?
Shinji: *jumps slightly when kamio talks* oh erm i was just thinking about how there was that accident when you came over and we listened to cobra starship and how it made me kind of realize something that i might have already slightly realized and i really shouldn't be saying this and i'm going to shut up now
Kamio: What?
Shinji: *stares at kamio, cheeks reddening just a little bit* the accident when we were getting up for dinner you remember that right i mean it's not like it's anything that's easily forgettable or maybe it was and i'm the only one still thinking about it
Kamio: *takes a second to remember and then frowns* ...that's still bothering you??? Why? It was just an accident, it's not a big deal!
Shinji: *sighs and looks at kamio* akira-kun it's not bothering me in the i feel bad about it that was crazy and shouldn't have happened kind of way and it's not really bothering me at all its that i can't stop thinking about it and about how if it weren't for an-chan i wouldn't mind it happening again *is about 60 shades of red*
Kamio: *looks really confused* What?
Shinji: nevermind it doesn't matter i don't feel like repeating myself and it's probably better if i don't i shouldn't have said anything in the first place
Kamio: *frowns* No...I heard you...I just...
Shinji: maybe i should leave and not spend the night because this is going to be really awkward now and i should have just stuck to not speaking because i know i just made a complete idiot of myself and *starts mumbling quietly to himself*
Kamio: *sits up all the way and looks at Shinji* ...I don't want you to leave... I just don't know what to say, Shinji...
Shinji: *is still standing awkwardly over by the cds* *finally picks out a cd and puts it into the stereo* i don't know what you should say either akira-kun but i hope that maybe things make more sense now that you know or that they'll at least start to
Kamio: *pouts* Yeah, okay.
Shinji: *comes and sits down at the far end of kamio's bed and pulls his knees up and rest his chin on them as he listens to the music*
Kamio: *lies back down on the bed, thinking, still having trouble processing exactly what is going on and listens to the music, but doesn't move at all - which is unusual*
Shinji: *watches kamio for a few minutes before speaking* you should have just ignored that i was acting weird because now you are but i can see now how difficult it is to not point out when something someone always does comes to a stop
Kamio: *frowns* I couldn't ignore it, Shinji. You're my best friend. When something's bothering you it bothers me.
Shinji: i'm sorry i worried you akira-kun i'll try not to let that happen again but this wasn't something easy for me to say and it doesn't seem like it's easy for you to accept either
Kamio: No....no...I understand...I... *sighs* It's only been five minutes, just give me a sec.
Shinji: accepting and understanding aren't the same thing akira-kun but take all the time you need i guess is all i can say now without sounding too trite but then there isn't much you can say in a situation like this that doesn't sound clichéd because more often than not this sort of thing only happens in shoujo manga and dramas and things like that which i only really know about because escaping anything my sisters do is pretty much impossible
Kamio: *is quiet for a long moment* ...since when...?
Shinji: i don't really know for how long but at least as long as you've been dating an-chan possibly longer but i didn't realize it until i started feeling jealous of an-chan
Kamio: Oh.
Shinji: yeah well i wasn't really aware of it until a few days before you came over and the accident happened but i was less aware of it before the accident than after the accident and sorry i've been so weird but you'd be weird too if you came to the realization that you're probably gay though i might be bisexual i'm not really sure i guess i'll figure that out eventually but back to the weird thing if you'd just discovered that and that you had a crush on your best friend you'd find it really hard not to act that way especially if that friend is dating a girl that you're also friends with and who happens to be very nice
Kamio: *nods and opens his mouth as if to say something, but nothing comes out* *tries again and fails* ...I'm sorry.
Shinji: *eyes widen and looks at kamio* why are you sorry
Kamio: *shakes his head* ...I don't know...I just...I don't want you to feel crappy because of me...
Shinji: i'd feel less weird if the next time i started acting strange you just ignored it or at least didn't point it out to me because then i can just get over it quickly without us fighting about it or drawing attention to it *isn't really sure this will solve anything*
Kamio: *pouts* I can't just ignore it, Shinji.
Shinji: i don't know what to say then akira-kun just that when you point it out it makes me defensive and that just seems to make me act even more weird than i was before you pointed it out
Kamio: *pouts more* I don't like feeling like you can't talk to me about stuff.
Shinji: but it's not stuff it's one thing akira-kun and how am i supposed to talk about this with you beyond right now because i don't think its going to change how i feel
Kamio: *sighs* I don't know.
Shinji: *sighs also, and lays down at the foot of the bed* well i don't know either and us just sitting here saying i don't know isn't changing anything
Kamio: *scootches closer to Shinji and looks down at him* Then what do we do now?
Shinji: *looks up* i feel like a hypocrite for saying this after what i just got done saying but i don't know
Kamio: *smooths down his bangs and thinks* Well just sitting here and not knowing what to do isn't doing us any good. *bites his lip and looks down at Shinji again* Are we gonna be okay?
Shinji: of course we're going to be okay akira-kun unless you thinking knowing this is going to make it difficult for us to remain friends but you've already said that it wouldn't *is trying not to think about how much he wants to kiss kamio because there's an-chan to think about and he doesn't want to be the cause of two of his friends breaking up*
Kamio: *shakes his head* No! No...I never want to stop being friends with you! *is frustrated and really has no idea what to do*
Shinji: good because i don't want to stop being friends with you either because then who would i talk to about all the things i like to talk about and actually have them listen and be interested *bites his own lip*
Kamio: *sighs and lies down next to Shinji, staring at the ceiling* Then you have to keep being my best friend.
Shinji: i can do that i don't see any reason why i shouldn't be able to at least but i don't want things to be awkward between us or between an-chan and i so please don't tell her why i've been acting strange i don't want her getting upset *watches kamio stare at the ceiling*
Kamio: *sighs and leans his head a little bit onto Shinji's shoulder* I won't.
Shinji: *wonders if this is okay or not* akira-kun is this okay you resting your head on my shoulder after what i just told you not that i mind just that it's a bit awkward
Kamio: *rolls his head back to look at the ceiling again* ...sorry. Is that too close?
Shinji: no it's not too close it wasn't too close before just that it made things awkward *doesn't really know how to explain this*
Kamio: *lays his head back on Shinji's shoulder* I don't feel awkward.
Shinji: you don't how come you don't but i do
Kamio: ...I don't know. *sighs* I don't want to pretend that you didn't tell me what you told me, but I don't want things to be weird either. Can we do that?
Shinji: *sighs* we can try but i don't know how to make things not weird akira-kun
Kamio: Yeah...me either.
Shinji: *lays there silently for awhile* what time is it akira-kun
Kamio: *lifts his head to check his alarm clock* 11:54.
Shinji: we should probably go to sleep because we have school in the morning *doesn't actually think he can sleep right now, but he should at least try*
Kamio: *shrugs* yeah, okay. *sits up and without thinking starts undoing his belt to get ready for bed*
Shinji: *doesn't bother undressing any and just moves up to the head of the bed to lay down with his head on a pillow* *stares up at the ceiling*
Kamio: *lets his pants fall to the ground and pulls back the covers on one side of the bed, crawling in and shutting off the light* ...goodnight, Shinji.
Shinji: good night akira-kun *lays awake for a while* *awkwardly* *gets cold and gets under the blankets, too*
Kamio: *lays awake for awhile too, and is more relieved than anything when Shinji finally gets under the covers and falls asleep pretty soon after that*
Shinji: *is awake for a little while longer after kamio falls asleep before finally giving into it and letting his eyes close*
What: Awkwardness and Confessions
Where: Kamio's house
When: This past Tuesday night
Why: There was still awkward.
Notes: Your characters weren't there and didn't see this. Srsly.
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Shinji: *heads over to kamio's house sometime after dinner but before it's late* *knocks on the door*
Kamio: *answers the door and invites Shinji in* Hey.
Shinji: hey akira-kun *steps into the house and takes off his shoes*
Kamio: *closes the door behind him* What movie do you wanna watch?
Shinji: *shrugs* i don't really care what movie we watch though it would probably be better if we don't watch anything scary because i don't really want to have nightmares and i'm only good with scary movies if i'm able to watch something not scary afterwards or it's still daylight out though i guess you probably already knew that but maybe an action movie or an anime would be good but i don't really mind i'll watch whatever you want to watch
Kamio: I just bought Transformers, is that okay?
Shinji: transformers would be more than okay akira-kun i haven't seen it yet and i've been wanting to well i did see part of it the other week because my sisters were watching it but i had homework to get done so i didn't stay for all of it
Kamio: Yeah, okay awesome. *takes the movie out of its case and puts it in the DVD player* Do you want anything to drink or anything?
Shinji: *sits down on the couch* sure i'll have something to drink did your mom buy any more of those juiceboxes that i really like because if she did i'll take a couple of those otherwise just whatever you have is fine
Kamio: *goes to the kitchen and checks the fridge* Yeah, we have those. *grabs a bunch and tosses a few at Shinji*
Shinji: *catches them and opens up one to start drinking* thanks akira-kun
Kamio: No problem. *smiles* *starts the movie with a sigh, still weirded out by the weird vibe that is definitely still in the air*
Shinji: *tries to focus on the movie but keeps subtly eyeing kamio out of the corner of his eye*
Kamio: *can sort of feel Shinji watching him and tries to catch him in the act*
Shinji: *spends the next half hour focused solely on the movie and his juice*
Kamio: *sort of pouts, because Shinji usually mumbles through movies too*
Shinji: *would mumble but then might say something entirely inappropriate and yes he's acting weird and knows kamio is going to call him on it when the movie is done*
Kamio: *watches the movie, but isn't really absorbing what's going on*
Shinji: *starts looking at kamio out of the corner of his eye again*
Kamio: *doesn't react, although he can feel Shinji looking*
Shinji: *is torn between wanting the movie to end and wanting it to continue on forever so he doesn't have to face kamio's accusations again*
Kamio: *eventually, the movie does end* *watches the credits roll by*
Shinji: *is still being strangely silent* *credits almost over* i'll be right back akira-kun i have to go to the bathroom *gets up and spends twenty minutes just sitting in the bathroom*
Kamio: *knows that Shinji can't really be in the bathroom for that long* *knocks on the bathroom door* ....Shinji? ....you okay???
Shinji: *flushes the toilet (that he didn't use except to sit on) and washes his hands* i'm fine akira-kun
Kamio: *frowns* ...okay... *waits outside the bathroom for Shinji to come out*
Shinji: *comes out a minute later not quite meeting kamio's eyes* can we head upstairs instead of sitting in the livingroom unless you were wanting to watch another movie which i guess would be fine
Kamio: *is eying Shinji suspiciously* ...yeah, okay, we can go up to my room if you want.
Shinji: *heads up to kamio's room and starts poking around at his cd collection, looking for something to listen to*
Kamio: *plops down on his bed and watches Shinji without saying anything. The silence is awkward and almost palpable*
Shinji: *isn't sure how much longer he can go without saying anything before one of them loses it* *totally doesn't want to ruin their friendship either though by saying the wrong thing*
Kamio: *can be quiet for a very long time, if need be* *lies down on his bed and sighs*
Shinji: *has looked through all the cds 3 times now* *finally starts mumbling* akira-kun maybe you are right about me acting weird and i'm sorry that i was trying to say i wasn't when it was pretty obvious i have been but i don't know how no what no maybe how is the word i am looking for but what could work too if i decided to go in that direction *trails off mumbling to himself over whether to use what or how*
Kamio: *sits up a little* You don't know how or what to what, Shinji?
Shinji: *jumps slightly when kamio talks* oh erm i was just thinking about how there was that accident when you came over and we listened to cobra starship and how it made me kind of realize something that i might have already slightly realized and i really shouldn't be saying this and i'm going to shut up now
Kamio: What?
Shinji: *stares at kamio, cheeks reddening just a little bit* the accident when we were getting up for dinner you remember that right i mean it's not like it's anything that's easily forgettable or maybe it was and i'm the only one still thinking about it
Kamio: *takes a second to remember and then frowns* ...that's still bothering you??? Why? It was just an accident, it's not a big deal!
Shinji: *sighs and looks at kamio* akira-kun it's not bothering me in the i feel bad about it that was crazy and shouldn't have happened kind of way and it's not really bothering me at all its that i can't stop thinking about it and about how if it weren't for an-chan i wouldn't mind it happening again *is about 60 shades of red*
Kamio: *looks really confused* What?
Shinji: nevermind it doesn't matter i don't feel like repeating myself and it's probably better if i don't i shouldn't have said anything in the first place
Kamio: *frowns* No...I heard you...I just...
Shinji: maybe i should leave and not spend the night because this is going to be really awkward now and i should have just stuck to not speaking because i know i just made a complete idiot of myself and *starts mumbling quietly to himself*
Kamio: *sits up all the way and looks at Shinji* ...I don't want you to leave... I just don't know what to say, Shinji...
Shinji: *is still standing awkwardly over by the cds* *finally picks out a cd and puts it into the stereo* i don't know what you should say either akira-kun but i hope that maybe things make more sense now that you know or that they'll at least start to
Kamio: *pouts* Yeah, okay.
Shinji: *comes and sits down at the far end of kamio's bed and pulls his knees up and rest his chin on them as he listens to the music*
Kamio: *lies back down on the bed, thinking, still having trouble processing exactly what is going on and listens to the music, but doesn't move at all - which is unusual*
Shinji: *watches kamio for a few minutes before speaking* you should have just ignored that i was acting weird because now you are but i can see now how difficult it is to not point out when something someone always does comes to a stop
Kamio: *frowns* I couldn't ignore it, Shinji. You're my best friend. When something's bothering you it bothers me.
Shinji: i'm sorry i worried you akira-kun i'll try not to let that happen again but this wasn't something easy for me to say and it doesn't seem like it's easy for you to accept either
Kamio: No....no...I understand...I... *sighs* It's only been five minutes, just give me a sec.
Shinji: accepting and understanding aren't the same thing akira-kun but take all the time you need i guess is all i can say now without sounding too trite but then there isn't much you can say in a situation like this that doesn't sound clichéd because more often than not this sort of thing only happens in shoujo manga and dramas and things like that which i only really know about because escaping anything my sisters do is pretty much impossible
Kamio: *is quiet for a long moment* ...since when...?
Shinji: i don't really know for how long but at least as long as you've been dating an-chan possibly longer but i didn't realize it until i started feeling jealous of an-chan
Kamio: Oh.
Shinji: yeah well i wasn't really aware of it until a few days before you came over and the accident happened but i was less aware of it before the accident than after the accident and sorry i've been so weird but you'd be weird too if you came to the realization that you're probably gay though i might be bisexual i'm not really sure i guess i'll figure that out eventually but back to the weird thing if you'd just discovered that and that you had a crush on your best friend you'd find it really hard not to act that way especially if that friend is dating a girl that you're also friends with and who happens to be very nice
Kamio: *nods and opens his mouth as if to say something, but nothing comes out* *tries again and fails* ...I'm sorry.
Shinji: *eyes widen and looks at kamio* why are you sorry
Kamio: *shakes his head* ...I don't know...I just...I don't want you to feel crappy because of me...
Shinji: i'd feel less weird if the next time i started acting strange you just ignored it or at least didn't point it out to me because then i can just get over it quickly without us fighting about it or drawing attention to it *isn't really sure this will solve anything*
Kamio: *pouts* I can't just ignore it, Shinji.
Shinji: i don't know what to say then akira-kun just that when you point it out it makes me defensive and that just seems to make me act even more weird than i was before you pointed it out
Kamio: *pouts more* I don't like feeling like you can't talk to me about stuff.
Shinji: but it's not stuff it's one thing akira-kun and how am i supposed to talk about this with you beyond right now because i don't think its going to change how i feel
Kamio: *sighs* I don't know.
Shinji: *sighs also, and lays down at the foot of the bed* well i don't know either and us just sitting here saying i don't know isn't changing anything
Kamio: *scootches closer to Shinji and looks down at him* Then what do we do now?
Shinji: *looks up* i feel like a hypocrite for saying this after what i just got done saying but i don't know
Kamio: *smooths down his bangs and thinks* Well just sitting here and not knowing what to do isn't doing us any good. *bites his lip and looks down at Shinji again* Are we gonna be okay?
Shinji: of course we're going to be okay akira-kun unless you thinking knowing this is going to make it difficult for us to remain friends but you've already said that it wouldn't *is trying not to think about how much he wants to kiss kamio because there's an-chan to think about and he doesn't want to be the cause of two of his friends breaking up*
Kamio: *shakes his head* No! No...I never want to stop being friends with you! *is frustrated and really has no idea what to do*
Shinji: good because i don't want to stop being friends with you either because then who would i talk to about all the things i like to talk about and actually have them listen and be interested *bites his own lip*
Kamio: *sighs and lies down next to Shinji, staring at the ceiling* Then you have to keep being my best friend.
Shinji: i can do that i don't see any reason why i shouldn't be able to at least but i don't want things to be awkward between us or between an-chan and i so please don't tell her why i've been acting strange i don't want her getting upset *watches kamio stare at the ceiling*
Kamio: *sighs and leans his head a little bit onto Shinji's shoulder* I won't.
Shinji: *wonders if this is okay or not* akira-kun is this okay you resting your head on my shoulder after what i just told you not that i mind just that it's a bit awkward
Kamio: *rolls his head back to look at the ceiling again* ...sorry. Is that too close?
Shinji: no it's not too close it wasn't too close before just that it made things awkward *doesn't really know how to explain this*
Kamio: *lays his head back on Shinji's shoulder* I don't feel awkward.
Shinji: you don't how come you don't but i do
Kamio: ...I don't know. *sighs* I don't want to pretend that you didn't tell me what you told me, but I don't want things to be weird either. Can we do that?
Shinji: *sighs* we can try but i don't know how to make things not weird akira-kun
Kamio: Yeah...me either.
Shinji: *lays there silently for awhile* what time is it akira-kun
Kamio: *lifts his head to check his alarm clock* 11:54.
Shinji: we should probably go to sleep because we have school in the morning *doesn't actually think he can sleep right now, but he should at least try*
Kamio: *shrugs* yeah, okay. *sits up and without thinking starts undoing his belt to get ready for bed*
Shinji: *doesn't bother undressing any and just moves up to the head of the bed to lay down with his head on a pillow* *stares up at the ceiling*
Kamio: *lets his pants fall to the ground and pulls back the covers on one side of the bed, crawling in and shutting off the light* ...goodnight, Shinji.
Shinji: good night akira-kun *lays awake for a while* *awkwardly* *gets cold and gets under the blankets, too*
Kamio: *lays awake for awhile too, and is more relieved than anything when Shinji finally gets under the covers and falls asleep pretty soon after that*
Shinji: *is awake for a little while longer after kamio falls asleep before finally giving into it and letting his eyes close*