Aug 10, 2010 01:29
I'm moving to newyork because I have problems with my sleep.
Looks like Christmas came early.
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I love my Itunes Shuffle where it can identify with my emotions of the time almost immediately, playing the songs that I feel about; perhaps it is just my music in general that identifies with my mood swings. Though if it was the work of apple, then rejoice in the advent of Steve Jobs.
I am working towards a sense of equanimity where I am in a state where I constantly control my emotions, pallid or not. Being completely in control of yourself, and putting your emotions into a box and stowing it away into the deep recesses of your mind works because it is completely utilitarian.
Dealing with your emotions does not mean letting it out, because like drugs, the next 'let out' would have to be a lot stronger than the previous one.
Pain does not count for unless you feel it.
If you don't feel pain, then what is pain? What is sadness if you don't feel it? If you can tune yourself to ignore such emotions, then wouldn't you achieve a state of apathy, following which a state of complete bliss and happiness.
I'm asking the man in the mirror, asking him to change his ways.
a new day,
freedom,
life