Long awaited, random update.
I've got a few minutes here and it's perhaps time to update on the past few days/weeks.
Work: Has been an eye opening experience. The higher-ups seem to like my work; I do try hard and tend to go above and beyond what is expected, though it may be setting a standard that is not deserved at this location. I like my coworkers and enjoy the idea of being on my feet for the shift instead of being behind a desk. Though I normally like helping people, even though I am shy, this customer service idea is far off of what I had ever wanted to do and is making me loathe going out anymore. Frustrations are occurring daily with scheduling issues (more like not scheduling), lack of care from other workers, arrogant shoppers, untidy work area, horrible storage practices, dangerous lifting measures and a plethora of things that are adding up to make this job unbearable. Props have to be given to Jarett for dealing with my complaints and whining of work related issues; I could very easily quit but that would just land me another mediocre job, bottom of the ladder, and possibly a need for transportation. Sticking it out at CT I'll at least stay in an upward climb as I am possibly their most trusted employees, keep a good feel on coworkers, and keep my costs in commute nil.
Home: We've got a happy medium here in Port Coquitlam: close enough to major city things but far enough away to keep a more suburban feel. I fear the mass of growth that is happening, they are planning on building the first tower in the area this summer which with greatly tax the already jammed roads, new bypasses are being put in, and bridges with tolls are planned. All of this planning seems to be to bring separation to the surrounding towns, but what I see happening is a major isolating of people due to costs of transportation. This could effect the culture of Vancouver and possibly cause some ill temper between cities and towns.
Friends: Sadly this portion of life has been the hardest hurtle for me. It's hard to really get the feel on some of the people here. I am someone who has a tough time putting trust into people and with this whole relocation to Canada, I've lost touch with everyone I knew before so it's like starting all over again. Jarett's friends and family have been great with welcoming me into their circles, but I still can't help but feel like an accessory at times. It is totally my own fault and that is the frustrating part, I'm sure it is to Jarett as well. I'm getting lost on how to approach these different people, what kind of conversation to keep and what not to say. There is such a mix of occupations, styles, backgrounds, and beliefs that keep the interest level up there. With all that difference comes drama. Luckily sides are not an issue thus far, but the way we (I've caught myself in this too) talk about each other at times, I am apprehensive of what people say about us. I'm quiet, not that intelligent, out of date with news and politics, and nervous... I really REALLY want to get over this and am trying. When I do open up I get that angel on my shoulder telling me to step back- gah I am nervous that I may offend someone :( *kicks ass off this subject*
Family: Not much to say other than mine is growing up so darn fast. My nieces, nephew, great nieces and great nephew, have all bloomed in the past two years. During our visit to PA earlier this year I felt the difference in the town but the family feel of the house was still warm and welcoming. They have accepted Jarett as brother-in-law and my parents always ask about their newest son. It makes me smile so much to feel free and loved on both sides of our lives. Jarett's side of family have been just as wonderful and welcoming. It's nice to be around them, watching everyone grow, develop, and change to suit the nature of what's happening these days. I can say I miss that in my own family, being so far away the change of seeing them is much more drastic. I love it here, I enjoy the lifestyle, have a wonderful family backing and a new one to grow into: what more could I ask for?
My only regret, and I am not one to say that word much, is the lack of horses in my life. I truly miss it: that feel of power, the fragile connection, the sounds, the smells... I've lost hope on ever returning to what my dream was. As time progresses we must change so suit. It is not possible to have the family time I have now while having a equine job or riding again. It pains me to no end, sometimes to the point of tears, that that part of my life I've let go, but closing one door leads to opening up another. Perhaps this is what I needed, maybe my dreams were too high in the sky... A relationship was never in my mind but once found, it's become the ground on which I walk everyday. So go on with regrets, I've lived a lot of lovely times and continue to look forward to what tomorrow will bring.
Work: Has been an eye opening experience. The higher-ups seem to like my work; I do try hard and tend to go above and beyond what is expected, though it may be setting a standard that is not deserved at this location. I like my coworkers and enjoy the idea of being on my feet for the shift instead of being behind a desk. Though I normally like helping people, even though I am shy, this customer service idea is far off of what I had ever wanted to do and is making me loathe going out anymore. Frustrations are occurring daily with scheduling issues (more like not scheduling), lack of care from other workers, arrogant shoppers, untidy work area, horrible storage practices, dangerous lifting measures and a plethora of things that are adding up to make this job unbearable. Props have to be given to Jarett for dealing with my complaints and whining of work related issues; I could very easily quit but that would just land me another mediocre job, bottom of the ladder, and possibly a need for transportation. Sticking it out at CT I'll at least stay in an upward climb as I am possibly their most trusted employees, keep a good feel on coworkers, and keep my costs in commute nil.
Home: We've got a happy medium here in Port Coquitlam: close enough to major city things but far enough away to keep a more suburban feel. I fear the mass of growth that is happening, they are planning on building the first tower in the area this summer which with greatly tax the already jammed roads, new bypasses are being put in, and bridges with tolls are planned. All of this planning seems to be to bring separation to the surrounding towns, but what I see happening is a major isolating of people due to costs of transportation. This could effect the culture of Vancouver and possibly cause some ill temper between cities and towns.
Friends: Sadly this portion of life has been the hardest hurtle for me. It's hard to really get the feel on some of the people here. I am someone who has a tough time putting trust into people and with this whole relocation to Canada, I've lost touch with everyone I knew before so it's like starting all over again. Jarett's friends and family have been great with welcoming me into their circles, but I still can't help but feel like an accessory at times. It is totally my own fault and that is the frustrating part, I'm sure it is to Jarett as well. I'm getting lost on how to approach these different people, what kind of conversation to keep and what not to say. There is such a mix of occupations, styles, backgrounds, and beliefs that keep the interest level up there. With all that difference comes drama. Luckily sides are not an issue thus far, but the way we (I've caught myself in this too) talk about each other at times, I am apprehensive of what people say about us. I'm quiet, not that intelligent, out of date with news and politics, and nervous... I really REALLY want to get over this and am trying. When I do open up I get that angel on my shoulder telling me to step back- gah I am nervous that I may offend someone :( *kicks ass off this subject*
Family: Not much to say other than mine is growing up so darn fast. My nieces, nephew, great nieces and great nephew, have all bloomed in the past two years. During our visit to PA earlier this year I felt the difference in the town but the family feel of the house was still warm and welcoming. They have accepted Jarett as brother-in-law and my parents always ask about their newest son. It makes me smile so much to feel free and loved on both sides of our lives. Jarett's side of family have been just as wonderful and welcoming. It's nice to be around them, watching everyone grow, develop, and change to suit the nature of what's happening these days. I can say I miss that in my own family, being so far away the change of seeing them is much more drastic. I love it here, I enjoy the lifestyle, have a wonderful family backing and a new one to grow into: what more could I ask for?
My only regret, and I am not one to say that word much, is the lack of horses in my life. I truly miss it: that feel of power, the fragile connection, the sounds, the smells... I've lost hope on ever returning to what my dream was. As time progresses we must change so suit. It is not possible to have the family time I have now while having a equine job or riding again. It pains me to no end, sometimes to the point of tears, that that part of my life I've let go, but closing one door leads to opening up another. Perhaps this is what I needed, maybe my dreams were too high in the sky... A relationship was never in my mind but once found, it's become the ground on which I walk everyday. So go on with regrets, I've lived a lot of lovely times and continue to look forward to what tomorrow will bring.