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hey hey... well yea today i went to school like most other people did and im kinda confused on things. I went to this retreat at school with my theology class and it was about my faith and getting in touch with god and all that stuff and im kinda confused...because i think about the desicions i make and then think about what all the speakers talked about from past experience about how they regret so much the things they did in 9th and 10th grade and i really dont want to look back and regret things because i think that everything i do i should learn from and it should be valuable in some way...but its weird because latly everything has been about getting in touch with God and how he is so good to turn to and he will always be by your side and all that shit and that he comes through but i really dont no....at 15 im still having doubts about God and my faith and its hard to think that everytime things go great or go like shit that i should turn and pray to god....which i no i should but cant a girl wander??? Well i surely do and i guess i just have to believe and have faith that everything has a time and place and that things happen for a reason... i really dont no what else to do...and then my mom and dad wrote me palacas that i got to read today and it was all about how special i am and all that shit that i just dont no about.... i mean to them im special but again that whole just believing thing is really hard for me... i guess i need to get more in touch and i need to believe and have a lot more faith about things or i am not going to get anywhere....like everyone says that when they go on retreats they come back as totally changed people because they realize soooo much and it really reflects on the way they are...but i still am not feeling any more clear about having faith and where it is going to lead me.....if you no please share!!!!! so im not so baffled about everything