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i find it kinda funny how i went from not updating in like 2 weeks.. to now doing it everyday...
Today i got a new comforter and sheets and drapes for my new room.. they are sooo pretty and comfortable. I love them..and it looks so great with the new furniture. Things look soo much better when they all tie together
So i just talked to a friend on the phone for like 2 hours... and suddenly.. my all depressed day just got a little better. I don't know what it is about certain people.. but they can really make you feel better. and realize so much more than your own eyes let you see.
I dont really understand why my day was so bad.. bc i went to a neighborhood party...and i actually met a couple people.. its just soo freaking hard, bc when you meet new people.. you don't know what to say.. since you don't know what they are like or how they think. So ofcourse just talk like yourself and act like you are.. but still there are just certain things that you aren't sure to ask or mention... i should be happy that i met people.. and yet really.. it just upsets me.. bc i went to this party.. and my sister and i just sat together and basically watched everyone bc we didn't know a single person. And you can't just walk up to some random person and start talking.. that would be so akward... so just from that like 45 minutes of not talking to anyone.. i got so upset to think that that is how it is going to be in school.. except for the fact that i will really be all on my own.. no sister or anything.. and its soo depressing....
so even after meeting people, I was still down. bc i just cant state the facts that this is my life.. and there is only one thing that can change it... but im not going to say what it is...bc i dont want certain people mad at me...(tara) :/
so now it is 2 30.. and since i was up until 4 30 last night... i am thinking i should probably go to bed soon. .. my eyes are heavy...and my body is drained
thanks for talking to me.. and making things better for a little while atleast..
later, er/n
Today i got a new comforter and sheets and drapes for my new room.. they are sooo pretty and comfortable. I love them..and it looks so great with the new furniture. Things look soo much better when they all tie together
So i just talked to a friend on the phone for like 2 hours... and suddenly.. my all depressed day just got a little better. I don't know what it is about certain people.. but they can really make you feel better. and realize so much more than your own eyes let you see.
I dont really understand why my day was so bad.. bc i went to a neighborhood party...and i actually met a couple people.. its just soo freaking hard, bc when you meet new people.. you don't know what to say.. since you don't know what they are like or how they think. So ofcourse just talk like yourself and act like you are.. but still there are just certain things that you aren't sure to ask or mention... i should be happy that i met people.. and yet really.. it just upsets me.. bc i went to this party.. and my sister and i just sat together and basically watched everyone bc we didn't know a single person. And you can't just walk up to some random person and start talking.. that would be so akward... so just from that like 45 minutes of not talking to anyone.. i got so upset to think that that is how it is going to be in school.. except for the fact that i will really be all on my own.. no sister or anything.. and its soo depressing....
so even after meeting people, I was still down. bc i just cant state the facts that this is my life.. and there is only one thing that can change it... but im not going to say what it is...bc i dont want certain people mad at me...(tara) :/
so now it is 2 30.. and since i was up until 4 30 last night... i am thinking i should probably go to bed soon. .. my eyes are heavy...and my body is drained
thanks for talking to me.. and making things better for a little while atleast..
later, er/n