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its been quite awhile since i have updated. I guess being in florida...
home.. that i was just so overwelmed and i didn't find the time to
update. thats odd... but anyway..
Nikki and melissa and family= we had sucha awesome time on the cruise. Although there was definately a couple downs to the trip... over all we had such an amazing time. between all the different people we met... guys and girls... it is something i will never forget. not so sure if i would do everything the way i did it.. if i could go back and change a couple things i probly would...but whatever... no regrets bc like i always say... at one time i wanted to do everything i did.. so why go back and think on it now. so i did everything from being in mexico.. like they say.. what happened in mexico, will stay in mexico. We went banana boating... i lost an earring.. not so exciting. hung out on the ship with awesome people. went snorkeling and to sting ray city in the caymans. sooo much more then i got to come back and i stayed with tara. saw all my friends.. well most of them. got extremely wasted.. won't do it like that again. I don't know.. i guess everything just piled up in my life and that seemed like the one thing that would take it all away. I said some things to different people.. and im sorry if it hurt you.. although i did mean the things i said.. and they were only about myself so im not sure why it made other people hurt. Whose to know. the rest of the week i just hung out.. basically chilled.. since that one night.. i didn't want to do anything that was going to fuck me over again... tried to promise myself to never drink again.. yet that never freaking works. not to sound like an alcoholic bc thats not the way it is... its just when you get into the state that i was in... you should probably take a step back.. and realize what you are doing to your body and everything else... I know everything happens for a reason... and yes i did learn a lesson.. it would just be soo much better if I could promise myself to never do it again.. but i can't.. and latly its been bothering me.. bc if other people are worried for me.. then i guess i should probably be worried for myself. I think that would make sense.
So on my last day... i hung out with jon.. jon deere... it was a lot of fun.. Since he lives in St. Louis, i haven't seen him in so long. How odd is that, that he is down at the same time i did.. but i wish i was in his shoes.. bc he gets to stay until like august.
I shouldn't complain because tara is coming to stay with me for like a month.. and i think melissa is coming too.. so that makes me a little happy it just sucks soo bad because i would so much rather be here with everyone than have people with me in Georgia with nothing to do. and no one to go hang out or party with. Anyway.. hung out with alex and alexis and jon at night... should have made that promise earlier this week not to drink.. but since i didnt.. take a wild guess what i did last night. Whatever.. i had an awesome time i must say.. and like you said... who would have ever guessed! I still don't know what you meant when you said it was my looks... oh well.
So now its like 7 something.. i was supposed to get on a plane at 6:40.. but on account that i woke up at 6.. i kinda missed my flight. So i am sitting in the fucking airport doing nothing.. and i thought what better to do than to update the lj? I have to wait until 10:40 now.. and thats standby.. so who knows if i am even going to get on. Another reason thats proving my point that i think it is not destin to be in Georgia. If it was.. i don't think things would always be going wrong. I am really starting to believe in karma... and I think everything about living there is bad.. who knows. but wow.. i just need to get things together.and being hungover is not going to help.
later er/n
Nikki and melissa and family= we had sucha awesome time on the cruise. Although there was definately a couple downs to the trip... over all we had such an amazing time. between all the different people we met... guys and girls... it is something i will never forget. not so sure if i would do everything the way i did it.. if i could go back and change a couple things i probly would...but whatever... no regrets bc like i always say... at one time i wanted to do everything i did.. so why go back and think on it now. so i did everything from being in mexico.. like they say.. what happened in mexico, will stay in mexico. We went banana boating... i lost an earring.. not so exciting. hung out on the ship with awesome people. went snorkeling and to sting ray city in the caymans. sooo much more then i got to come back and i stayed with tara. saw all my friends.. well most of them. got extremely wasted.. won't do it like that again. I don't know.. i guess everything just piled up in my life and that seemed like the one thing that would take it all away. I said some things to different people.. and im sorry if it hurt you.. although i did mean the things i said.. and they were only about myself so im not sure why it made other people hurt. Whose to know. the rest of the week i just hung out.. basically chilled.. since that one night.. i didn't want to do anything that was going to fuck me over again... tried to promise myself to never drink again.. yet that never freaking works. not to sound like an alcoholic bc thats not the way it is... its just when you get into the state that i was in... you should probably take a step back.. and realize what you are doing to your body and everything else... I know everything happens for a reason... and yes i did learn a lesson.. it would just be soo much better if I could promise myself to never do it again.. but i can't.. and latly its been bothering me.. bc if other people are worried for me.. then i guess i should probably be worried for myself. I think that would make sense.
So on my last day... i hung out with jon.. jon deere... it was a lot of fun.. Since he lives in St. Louis, i haven't seen him in so long. How odd is that, that he is down at the same time i did.. but i wish i was in his shoes.. bc he gets to stay until like august.
I shouldn't complain because tara is coming to stay with me for like a month.. and i think melissa is coming too.. so that makes me a little happy it just sucks soo bad because i would so much rather be here with everyone than have people with me in Georgia with nothing to do. and no one to go hang out or party with. Anyway.. hung out with alex and alexis and jon at night... should have made that promise earlier this week not to drink.. but since i didnt.. take a wild guess what i did last night. Whatever.. i had an awesome time i must say.. and like you said... who would have ever guessed! I still don't know what you meant when you said it was my looks... oh well.
So now its like 7 something.. i was supposed to get on a plane at 6:40.. but on account that i woke up at 6.. i kinda missed my flight. So i am sitting in the fucking airport doing nothing.. and i thought what better to do than to update the lj? I have to wait until 10:40 now.. and thats standby.. so who knows if i am even going to get on. Another reason thats proving my point that i think it is not destin to be in Georgia. If it was.. i don't think things would always be going wrong. I am really starting to believe in karma... and I think everything about living there is bad.. who knows. but wow.. i just need to get things together.and being hungover is not going to help.
later er/n