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well well
sitting at my new house.. have been in and out all day yet im already sick of being here and its not even like i haven't left. not so sure what the hell to do bc i feel like im lost.
im used to being around people.. with people interacting and everything else. and now its basically mom dad and me. i dont no ... this place i am in is just so weird. I feel like im up a creek without a paddle
I want to go home. Back to where I no people and the things around me.
My new house is awesome. I love having my own bar movie room and pool table. Its great. I have my own bathroom and a walk in closet that is better than i have ever had in any of my other houses. So in that aspect of it, things are great. But as soon as im not in my house, this place is so different
Every road looks the same... they are all just like you are swiveling around another hill.. but i guess once i figure out where i really am i will realize that they all go different directions, and obviously that different roads will take me different places and in different directions.
I guess its kinda like life.
Everything has its own route. And you just have to find the one that makes most comfortable.. get on it.. and just enjoy the ride until you get where you really want to be. I think its really funny how i realize all of this.. and i no that its true.. yet its soo hard for me to realize that if i give things time, everything will most likely turn out ok
I am just so confused. I dont no what will make anything better...well i do
the beach
but ofcourse.. this place has no beach. they have a fucking lake, what the hell.. even though it will be cool once i start wakeboarding.
Time.... thats all i need to realize.. that everything happens when the time is right
but saying all this and actually believing it are soooooo different
Well today i got a new queen size matress... i cant wait till they deliver it tomorrow bc i no how comfortable it is. Its soooo soft.. I am stoked about that.. and then tuesday i get to go shopping. That should take my mind off things..
at least for a little while :/
After picking out the matress i went out to lunch.. and then to a skate shop. Next to it is a indoor skate park.. it was pretty awesome.. even though i dont skate.. yet! lol
then i talked to alex for a while.. what an awesome kid.. i miss you!!! lol
then tara... and nikki later in the day
basically thats what i do everyday... text... talk on the phone.. and AIM
hopefully this lifestyle will change... bc its not really to my likings
er/n
sitting at my new house.. have been in and out all day yet im already sick of being here and its not even like i haven't left. not so sure what the hell to do bc i feel like im lost.
im used to being around people.. with people interacting and everything else. and now its basically mom dad and me. i dont no ... this place i am in is just so weird. I feel like im up a creek without a paddle
I want to go home. Back to where I no people and the things around me.
My new house is awesome. I love having my own bar movie room and pool table. Its great. I have my own bathroom and a walk in closet that is better than i have ever had in any of my other houses. So in that aspect of it, things are great. But as soon as im not in my house, this place is so different
Every road looks the same... they are all just like you are swiveling around another hill.. but i guess once i figure out where i really am i will realize that they all go different directions, and obviously that different roads will take me different places and in different directions.
I guess its kinda like life.
Everything has its own route. And you just have to find the one that makes most comfortable.. get on it.. and just enjoy the ride until you get where you really want to be. I think its really funny how i realize all of this.. and i no that its true.. yet its soo hard for me to realize that if i give things time, everything will most likely turn out ok
I am just so confused. I dont no what will make anything better...well i do
the beach
but ofcourse.. this place has no beach. they have a fucking lake, what the hell.. even though it will be cool once i start wakeboarding.
Time.... thats all i need to realize.. that everything happens when the time is right
but saying all this and actually believing it are soooooo different
Well today i got a new queen size matress... i cant wait till they deliver it tomorrow bc i no how comfortable it is. Its soooo soft.. I am stoked about that.. and then tuesday i get to go shopping. That should take my mind off things..
at least for a little while :/
After picking out the matress i went out to lunch.. and then to a skate shop. Next to it is a indoor skate park.. it was pretty awesome.. even though i dont skate.. yet! lol
then i talked to alex for a while.. what an awesome kid.. i miss you!!! lol
then tara... and nikki later in the day
basically thats what i do everyday... text... talk on the phone.. and AIM
hopefully this lifestyle will change... bc its not really to my likings
er/n