I am falling apart
Another day down, another day over. Work has been getting stupid lately and alot of the managers have been getting on my nerves...oh well soon I will be out of Daytona and on with my life, well if December is soon.
I have been thinking alot lately, and I cannot waite to move out of Daytona, besides a few real friends and a hero of a roomate I have nothing to leave behind but a school I never was really excepted at, a city of backstabbers, and a place that a country boy could never appreciate. A lot of memories I would just prefer to leave here and never draw back up. Life goes on and I am ready for it to.
I am haunted from day to day by it all, the never ending lingering of failure. Everyone's eyes are upon me, staring down, digging deep. I am nothing to them, but a standard that fell and aloud them to feel better about themselves. Laughing scaring. they are all that mark me, turn the other cheek....yes, even though it is already bloody. Man has no judgement on you, nor does their opinion of you matter, though their words scar you.....without them, you are no less, with them no more...just a mystical kiss that will disapear from their memories, if I was even ever there. We all smile and say goodbye, hugs are shared but when does the heart connect. Cold blood runs through my veins.
I have been thinking alot lately, and I cannot waite to move out of Daytona, besides a few real friends and a hero of a roomate I have nothing to leave behind but a school I never was really excepted at, a city of backstabbers, and a place that a country boy could never appreciate. A lot of memories I would just prefer to leave here and never draw back up. Life goes on and I am ready for it to.
I am haunted from day to day by it all, the never ending lingering of failure. Everyone's eyes are upon me, staring down, digging deep. I am nothing to them, but a standard that fell and aloud them to feel better about themselves. Laughing scaring. they are all that mark me, turn the other cheek....yes, even though it is already bloody. Man has no judgement on you, nor does their opinion of you matter, though their words scar you.....without them, you are no less, with them no more...just a mystical kiss that will disapear from their memories, if I was even ever there. We all smile and say goodbye, hugs are shared but when does the heart connect. Cold blood runs through my veins.