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Ugh Tonight was going good. Until Santa baby. My friend took my chair so i had to go around her to the other side. From there on it fucked me up even more. I completly blacked out and didnt do a couple steps. GOD DAMN IT! UGH my worst fucking fear! Messing up soo much on stage!Oh yeah AND i was on the side with all the students....WTF! Their eyes were all watching me just waiting for me to make another mistake. GOd it wasnt even my fault. Now ill prob get bitched at by Crespo cause whenever something goes wrong i shake my head and dont smile and I just make it known that im pissed. I dont mean to. Its just what happens. FUCKING A! i hate that. I really hope tomorrow will be better. Not like it matters now. I really dont want to go to school tomorrow.Why the hell do i panic like that...it scares the fuck out of me..
Its like all eyes on you...just waiting till u make one single mistake. A new topic among gossip.