I screwed up.
I have done something I regret doing because it cost me the the chance of being w/ the woman I love the most in the world right now. After I told her that I would not not read anymore of her e-mails or instant messages I did it again I just want to know what she honestly thinks of me, and now she wants nothing to do w/ me I would be fine w/ it if it wasn't for the fact that we have a child together. I still love her and I believe I can change (scratch that) I need to show her I change and I will. Her moving so we can have time away from each other may even slightly make her miss me then I'm all for it but it's really going to kill me to be away from my son the most she has told me that I can move in w/ her in about a month or so after she gets out there but just as roommates and if we happen to start dating again I would love that but right now she doesn't want to be w/ me.