coz am mr brightside
OK the subject title is rubbish i just happen to be listening to that song. Am really bored because am doing my dumb uni work (where does the word uni come from hmmmmm?). I know am bored because am doing that stupid thing where i start imaging a different life style for myself with the cash, car and the girl i like to think of it as the "British" dream. Most likely because i don't go in for that semi-detach house wife and kid thing that apparntly is the the American dream. Hmmmm make me think what the Russia dream is or Mexcain dream is ??? Most likely a better life, that what it seems to boil down to no matter what point you get to in your life you always want more or i do but then maybe am just damm greedy. Wierd thing about my British dream is (not sleeping here just day dreaming) is that i always get the shit kick out of me i mean badly. Now thats abit fuck up i guess i must just have a nursing back help fetish. Maybe it just the idea in my head that the point where you find out who truely cares about you. Making that effort to see someone really sick to try to make them feel better because that a hard thing to do because what can you say. I know i didn't care enough to go see my Grandad i 've never had a what one might say is a close relationship with the man i mean i think five words is about it really. But yet their is still something teling me to go see him (he's been told he has about two week to live because of a life time of crap diets and smoking, smoking from 8 till 70 is asking for it you gotta say). No matter how much i don't care about the man he i don't go see him i'll never see him again i mena FULL STOP thats fucked up in my mind. Plus how guilty am i gonna feel when i turn up to the funeral and i didn't even go to see him while he was still alive. Stupid? i don't know but it ain't gonna be good now is it.
One thing that is good is the fact i know longer want to hangout with a "cooler crew" hahahaha no what i mean is that when you been hanging out with the same people for years or your hanging out with people that don't like the norm you often think maybe i could be having a more exciting life this sounds bads as i type it like a strong feeling i had through school which has faded as i have grown up and it completed disappear forever on new year eve due to the fact that the people that were the cool kids at school were out and my god they suck haha there so stupid awwww i don't know how to explain it but one things fair to say me and my friend had the better time and it was a great night out. Funniest thing i've been a Hull for 2 months and its surpost to be a hard place and i haven't seen a single fight there yet. I've been back in the dales for a few weeks and i've seen 5 brawls and one was three police vans full? arrrrrrrrrr shit am starting to t
One thing that is good is the fact i know longer want to hangout with a "cooler crew" hahahaha no what i mean is that when you been hanging out with the same people for years or your hanging out with people that don't like the norm you often think maybe i could be having a more exciting life this sounds bads as i type it like a strong feeling i had through school which has faded as i have grown up and it completed disappear forever on new year eve due to the fact that the people that were the cool kids at school were out and my god they suck haha there so stupid awwww i don't know how to explain it but one things fair to say me and my friend had the better time and it was a great night out. Funniest thing i've been a Hull for 2 months and its surpost to be a hard place and i haven't seen a single fight there yet. I've been back in the dales for a few weeks and i've seen 5 brawls and one was three police vans full? arrrrrrrrrr shit am starting to t