well..fuck that shit!
ok so nevermind my last enrty...i need to FUCKING LEAVE! i can't stand being in this fucking house anymore! i hate feeling like i'm not part of this family and that i'm just here. i'm tired of being asked what i'm doing every fucking second. i hate trying to fix everyting only to get blamed for it...but the thing that kills me the most is that i know i can't leave for a long time. i don't have the money to move out to Raleigh and i won't anytime soon...and i don't make enough to move out around here..plus i wouldn't be able to save to move to NC...FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!! i'm done with this fucking family and i can't wait to get away from it all...