A (Belated) Apology
This has been on my mind ever since last summer but I really haven't had the chance to put my thoughts about this out in the open. When Melissa and I finally made things official I took some time to look back on what I was like in the last few years when things went wrong. I can sum up that time in one sentence;
I acted like an asshole.
Not something I like to admit to but it is the honest truth. Friends, family and new faces I met during that time didn't exactly like what they saw. To tell the truth neither did I. Whether it was acting immature, being stupid, petty or however else I was at the time...no one deserved it. In the process some people became so annoyed by the crap I did they toled me to shove off. At first I was pissed but I was in the wrong. I got what I gave to them and I let the shit that screwed me up in the first place win in the end. It turned me into something that was ugly and people ran from that.
I sure as hell didn't like that person and I can't blame anyone for taking off and not looking back. As for those that did stick around and put up with me...I honestly don't know how much restraint you had, I'm just lucky I didn't wear all fo it down.
To make a long story short (...too late), to everyone I've known whether they are my friend or not, which is definetly my doing, I'm sorry for the way I did things in the past couple of years. Anything that I said or did that was offensive or was just plain stupid I had no right to do any of it. I wasn't in a good place but even that is no excuse. I would name names to everyone I did wrong but that would take a long time. The only promise I can make is I am and will continue to be a better person than I was the day before.
I acted like an asshole.
Not something I like to admit to but it is the honest truth. Friends, family and new faces I met during that time didn't exactly like what they saw. To tell the truth neither did I. Whether it was acting immature, being stupid, petty or however else I was at the time...no one deserved it. In the process some people became so annoyed by the crap I did they toled me to shove off. At first I was pissed but I was in the wrong. I got what I gave to them and I let the shit that screwed me up in the first place win in the end. It turned me into something that was ugly and people ran from that.
I sure as hell didn't like that person and I can't blame anyone for taking off and not looking back. As for those that did stick around and put up with me...I honestly don't know how much restraint you had, I'm just lucky I didn't wear all fo it down.
To make a long story short (...too late), to everyone I've known whether they are my friend or not, which is definetly my doing, I'm sorry for the way I did things in the past couple of years. Anything that I said or did that was offensive or was just plain stupid I had no right to do any of it. I wasn't in a good place but even that is no excuse. I would name names to everyone I did wrong but that would take a long time. The only promise I can make is I am and will continue to be a better person than I was the day before.