what a waste.......
On saturday i realized something that i never thought that i would come to reality with. At least not this soon. I smoked with mal, colin, and wild bill, but things never really seemed right to me. Bill made this big, elaborate, techno-bong and i was thinking was the divine thinking that he put into making that thing, he could've made himself like a robot butler or something else useful. Then there was the trouble of finding a dealer and with all the energy and effort we put into that, we coulda had a wicked cool hang out with like alot of people. Finally, there was the money thing. With the money that we spent on that shit we coulda bought like a pizza or something that could be enjoyed by all, but no....no we didn't. I've realized that spending money on pot is like saying, "i'm buying a plant that's already dead and just to make sure that it's plenty dead, i'm gonna burn it." With all these elements i've come to the grime reality that i won't be smoking for a long time. i actually have thoughts of quitting in my head. I know that most of you that have read this far probrably don't believe me, but honestly, i'm trying not to smoke anymore and honestly i can't keep living this wasteful lifestyle anymore. This is the grime reality that i knew would hit me one day and just like i thought it wouldn't be pretty.