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ive been talking to my ex- mike we have been? i dont know what were tring to do but its like we never stopped liking eachother. this is so confusing for me. we broke up because of our drug issues but now that that is over with? fuck im so confused. he was my first and ive only been in love twice he was one. im so lost i want to cut my throught. i know at this point i should ignore my instincts because they always leave me with a shit result. but no one will ever understand my reasoning more than mike. i put him through hell and he still stuck it out with me. ive always said i wanted someone exactly like him but what if he changed. what if i fall for him before i find out he has changed. even worse what if he has some deep down resentment twords me and sets me up so he could hurt me like i did him. that is some heavy karma that is proubly owed to me. oh shit im fucked.