May 09, 2005 09:41
This past weekend I went home to visit my mom for mother's day. Of course I showed up at home and nobody was there, just my aunt and grandma. So I decided to head over to buddy Ernie's house. When I got there it was cool, just joking around and laughing. Then his little brother showed up and I started joking around with him too, just when I was in high school and he was in junior high. But then I noticed that my friend Ernie had been gone for a while. I was like oh man i guess he takes longer dumps than I do. But when i realized that he had been gone for more than 1/2 an hour, I thought it was time to go. So I told his little brother Andy, "i'm gonna head back home." He offered to give me a ride home. So I said sure. As I was walking to his car Ernie came out to say goodbye, well it wasn't actually goodbye, thats kind of gay, it was more like, "alright man, take it easy" kind of goodbye. When I got into the car, the first thing Andy told me was "I want to apologize". Of course being the non-serious type I am, I thought he was joking, but he wasn't. He went on to tell me that Ernie has changed, that he's always in bad mood, lashing out to his parents, siblings, and being overly jealous over his girlfriend. I could tell the way Andy was talking that he been holding this in for a long time, something I went through with my own older brother. And just like me and my brother (not the Ying Yang CD), they too had a close relationship. Andy was supposed to just drive me home, but ended up driving for about two hours just talking. Andy told me that he had been keeping to himself, and was asking from my experience of things of what he could do help his brother. I just told that he just had to continue to be there for him. Which I know is tough, because you become frustrated, especially when you see what it does to your mom. Which for me was the toughest part. In my situation I was a little more fortunate, I had another older brother to talk to. So I told Andy that he could look to me for someone to confide in, as an older brother. He told me that he had always thought of me as sort of an older brother, ever since he was a little kid and used to hang out with me and Ernie. Hearing that was really cool to me. So yeah I gonna start heading home a little more often now, I really don't want Ernie to turn to the awful things my brother turned to. I'm gonna do whatever I can to make sure that that doesn't happen.