relationships

[rickness86]

I find that I am a lonely man. I long for relationships deeper than what most people are comfortable with. I am not content with idle chatter. I am not good at it and the substance of it vanishes from my mind much too soon to establish any relationship

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[rickness86]

Here is where we come to opposing beliefs that I cannot deny. For you see that diety that you speak of is nothing less than the person of Jesus Christ. The problem that I face is nothing different than that which everyone else faces and that is the problem of not how do I get in touch with my diety, but rather, how do I live in my humanity?

None of us are content to only be a creation of God. Instead, we strive to be like God in whatever way we can imagine, whatever way that seems to be within our grasp; mentally, physically, socially, etc.. But the bottom line is that in the end we are lacking. We are powerless to control our own lives, not to mention the lives of those who are close to us. We are not God and neither are we a god. We are quite simply only creation and it is the living in that understanding that eludes us all.

Yes, there is a deity within me but it is not my own. It has been given to me by another. It is the very righteousness of Jesus given to me in exchange for the sin that was my own deity, the sin that was nothing short of self-worship. And so the answer is not found in returning back to the worship of the self, but in bonding with that deity, which is Jesus, and living in the freedom of sins forgiven...and trusting that as I am forgiven by God I can also be forgiven by man.

There comes a point in our lives at which we must face the reality that the only good within us is nothing short of evil. I think you are seeing this all too well now. And I also think that you are far too intelligent to think that all you need to do is just get in touch with the deity within. That may give you the illusion of hope, but in the end it does not address the real issues of sin that exists within your husband and within your relationship with him. You will never be god enough to change him or the situation. The only avenue that is left to you is to either continue and endure or leave and move on to a new relationship. But the bottom line is that in all this you are powerless; you are not God.

I hope that I have not been to rough in this reply. But if I have it is only out of my respect for you and the belief that we can be open and honest with each other. So please take these words with the love and respect that are genuinely felt and given.