relationships

[rickness86]

I find that I am a lonely man. I long for relationships deeper than what most people are comfortable with. I am not content with idle chatter. I am not good at it and the substance of it vanishes from my mind much too soon to establish any relationship

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[rickness86]

I thank you for your care. You are most wise. Jesus is all. He has always been with me from my earliest memory and He is the passion that stirs within me. But alas, I am human and with that I am also selfish. There is within me that old Adam that still yearns to be the god of my life. There are still selfish passions and desires that when left unmet drive me inward and into despair. Thus, I long for true relationships that mirror the relationship I have in Christ. But sin destroys true intimacy and forgiveness is not a human trait. So true relationships can be somewhat difficult. And it could be that I simply need to live in my humanity the same way that I live in Christ. But it is difficult to trust another to forgive. And that, I guess, is where the problem lies and why I long to live in simple superficial relationships where I can be free to be myself and not worry about the offenses. And yet, can there really be any real freedom without real forgiveness? And can there be real forgiveness without a true understanding of one's sin? Thus, I am not content with the superficial even though I long for its existence. And I find that my desire for true intimacy is outside of the comfort zone of most people.

Bottom line, I have true intimacy with Jesus for I know that He knows all my sin and forgives it all. But the living that out in life is where the struggle lies. But that is just the life that is our in this fallen world. One day, however, it will all be made right.

Thank you for your wonderful thoughts and concern. I always treasure your thoughts.

[hill_enchantres]

Humans, are not all created equal. Nor is their ability to forgive.

Sometimes what appears opposite my simply be a parallel - a separated but equal 360.

Keep your heart open, do not let it be shadowed by guilt for the beauty that God created - you. Just as you are, trying your best.