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Life is so weird I have never been so happy yet so discontent at the same time if it weren't for Ricky I would have dug my own grave by this point...MONEY SUCKS!!! exspecially when you don't have it...don't get me wrong love is the most inportant thing in the world to have and I definately don't lack that ...but it would be nice to have some sort of my own income instead of leaching off of family and Ricky all of the time ...I am fortunate enough to have some time off from school for a while, because dorm life is a fuckin joke my last remaining roomate is the one that I could live without and my favorite roomate is leaving in a couple weeks which blows huge donkey shlong ...I havn't heard from my friend sandy in like a month so I am beginning to think that she is pissed at me for some reason like maybe I don't write often enough or what not, I try my hardest but when you go to school at death camp it's hard to write all the time or maybe she has made a bunch of new friends and could give a flying fuck about me ...I have basically no contact with anybody that I went to school with anymore now that I am at JWU and I don't know anybody at school well enough yet to call them a true friend except for Brigid and she is leaving ...so Ricky is all that I have and I am so greatful for him...I wish that he didn't have to work third shift....I feel like the biggest asshole because I consume most of his free time and his family and friends must hate me ...it's so hard when he works all night and sleeps during the day and then the only real time that we have together is the weekends .