Jul 06, 2008 23:26
Dear Lisa,
Read your blog today for the first time in quite a while. While it's ironic that you will never read this as you do not know it exists, it brought up a subject which I felt compelled to write to you about. First let me say that I am extremely happy for you and for the life you have created for yourself. As I've said before, you seem as though you have found a good place for yourself in this world, one that many would not have expected, and this is something to be thankful for.
This being said, reading your posts makes me realize more and more the degree to which I am thankful I do not have children. Please understand that I love the idea of children and respect parents for what they attempt to do, the very thought of not being able to say... type on the computer when I like is almost nauseating to me. It's bad enough that I have to tip toe around other peoples kids so that I don't end up in prison for looking at some kid the wrong way or something, but if I were to be responsible for some tiny, helpless little pre-human which I'm not able to reason with, yet not able to smack when it does something wrong... I don't know how I would do it to be honest. And that's just the selfish part of the equation. I can't imagine how terrified I would feel about bringing a child into the type of future I see unfolding for us as a species. Not to sound like some pessimistic nut job, but truly there is a lot of evil out there that can surround and consume someone, or even worse, render them obsolete. I see it all around me and in fact it is a constant struggle not to subcome to this myself. How in the name of god do you find peace with that? I can't imagine.
Still, there needs to be a new generation, a new revolution of ideas and culture, and perhaps against all odds your children will be a part of that. I suppose like anything it is a proposition of faith, that things will come out against even, and that our children will push things forward, in their own way. In this, and only in this can I find hope, and what's better than hope when deciding where to invest your faith?
Regards,
Michael