i'm baaaaaaack!!!!
ok fellow l.j. folk. i've got some updating to do. well, first of all, i have a sore throat right now...ugh. this weekend has been weird cos yeah, i had to work overtime yesterday. so yeah i was at work from 1:30 - 10 last night. a little weird. so really i only have a 1 day weekend, so tomorrow i'm gonna be kinda grumpy. lol. ok , so yeah, i have to gloat now. I MET A BOY!!!! i was at the beatnik, a local karaoke joint/ coffee shop. well, jason and i were there for a friend's b day party, but there were a ton of people there already. like we knew i think , 3 people out of the 15 that were there. but then the people from the party came and were all, oh it's too crowded, and left. jason and i stayed. well, immediately i noticed this boy. very cute, about 6 feet tall, blonde hair, blue eyes, really cute. well, i could tell he was gay, and i was like, hmmm, cute blonde boy...niiiice...hehe. but then reality hit. i was in joshua tree, the only little black morsel up in there, and this cute white boy from this little hick town was not going to be into me. so, whatever, no sweat off my back, i was there to hookup anyways, i mean, it's the beatnik. well, i went up and sang, and then our friend rolan comes up and is all, "hey, my friend in the letterman jacket likes you" all high school and stuff...soo cute. i'm like, what no way, cute guys that i notice don't like me, that's just the way it is, the way it always has been. well, i sang another song, and now rolan and everyone else is pushing me to talk to this guy. so yeah , all night we knew that we liked each other, but didn't do anything, just stared and smiled. then they dragged us outside, and sat us down next to each other. so here we are , strangers, sitting down, with like 10 people surrounding us in silence pushing one of us to talk. so we decided it was too weird and went to his car to talk. so we did, exchanged numbers, hugged and he took his friends home. and when we hugged everyone was like.....awwwwww. cute, but embarassing. well, we were texting all night long, and all day the next day. then we went bowling for our first date type of thing. he's sooo cute, and it's kinda weird, we're perfect for each other...really strange. and this is the first boy that everyone has been like, "oh you guys are perfect". and people i really didn't know were like, "oh you and that blonde boy would be so cute together" so anyways, we went to the beatnik after bowling. and just hung out. then we went around the back so we could talk one on one. and we were holding hands and everything, and being all giddy and such. and just hugged, and made out. it was great. i haven't kissed a boy in forever, and this one was one that liked me and wants a relationship...lol. so yeah, hopefully we'll hang out some more this week. i'm sooo fucking giddy. i'm total 12 year old girl now. i usually get a little giddy, but never like this, it just feels, i dunno, different. like, for once, this might be the one that has no reservations, and is actually into me, no games. i dunno, not looking too far in the future, but definitely optimistic!!!! so yeah, out of nowhere, in the most obscure place i can think of...i found someone. i have a love life, and it's not one sided, or just casual. so yeah, this hopefully will last longer than 2 weeks, and break my little curse. if not, back to the drawing board, but i have a feeling that this could be something cool. and for me to be displaying my feelings about this on here, and leaving myself completely open to harsh comments on how i need to wake up and be real, or not be so immature and giddy, i must really be feeling something cool with him. so yeah, i might have an official boyfriend soon. cross your fingers everyone. and oh yeah, i can't wait till july, cos then jason and i will be 21!!! we might be going to vegas...too fun!!!!!! it just crossed my mind, cos my bestest friend is sitting here next to me singing alanis, and it's these times i really cherish, just us , sitting around, doing nothing, and just loving each other. he's been talking about possibly leaving to florida, and of course i don't want him to, he's all i've got really here. but i'm not gonna hold him back either. but yeah, i'll tie him up if he tries to leave, this year is just too cool, and we have plans, it's the party year, and i can't party alone. ok, i'm stopping now, cos yeah, i just need to...lol. anyways, as usual, i love y'all, and i'll update soon again. MY PC IS UP, SO I CAN GO ONLINE AT MY PLACE SOON!!!! haha, yeah right, like that'll be happneing when i can just go down and hang with jason...lol. anyways, late.