Oct 31, 2005 01:17
I feel refreshed. Yeah, a lot of shit aint going right, and some things need to be fixed. Most things didnt change either. But at the same time, I haven't felt this freakin good in weeks. Maybe its because I vented? Or maybe its because I told the truth, for the first time, even to myself. I dunno what came over me, but it just sounded so right coming out of my mouth. Do you ever get like that? When you dont consciously think of the words or thoughts, they just come spewing out of your heart and head? Thats what tonight was. Its like my superego just straight up took control over my mouth and started saying what my psyche really needed to say. I dunno. I feel refreshed.
I feel like I'm standing on a beach, during a hurricane, yet a small sliver of golden light just happens to slip through the clouds and storm to shine full on my face. I know the rain hasnt stopped, and I should probably go back inside, but that one brief moment of sunshine is glorious.