journal #5. names, continued.
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Today I think was definitely a good day. Even though I saw Dr. Sellers in passing.
I know it is a good day because now I have a name. First I asked Febronia and she said that names are very important and so maybe I should choose one for myself. I asked her where she got her name and she said that Daddy Dr. Mizrahi gave it to her. She said that he gave her a name and that he gave her sisters Cecily and Cathe their names too.
I felt... very sad when she said that, but I did not make a sad face. I know that Daddy Dr. Mizrahi Daddy did not give me a name but he gave them names. Today in the lab I almost asked him if would give me a name but-- I couldn't. That would be distracting. I must focus on my purpose and so I did not ask him.
Afterwards I talked to Dr. Meredith and she thought for a long time but then she said that she would call me "Isobel." She said that she had a dear friend on her home planet who had that name, and she passed away. "Passed away" is like being deactivated for humans.
I think this name is very beautiful and I am so happy that Dr. Meredith feels like I am good enough to have it.
When I am feeling sad I think I will just say my name. "Isobel." Isobel. Isobel. This name gives me a feeling that is so happy! I love this name because it is me. 99-Series Realian "Kirschwasser" #033 is me but Isobel is also me! I hope that now that I have a name I can better understand things like free will.
Today when I saw Dr. Sellers he was walking and talking with Dr. Winnicot. He asked me where I was going and I said back to my quarters and he said something to Dr. Winnicot that I did not hear. It was probably mean but I do not care because I know something they do not! which is that I have a name.
I can't wait to tell Nielsen and Febronia another day. I wonder if I can tell Dr. Mizrahi Daddy about this?
Today I think was definitely a good day. Even though I saw Dr. Sellers in passing.
I know it is a good day because now I have a name. First I asked Febronia and she said that names are very important and so maybe I should choose one for myself. I asked her where she got her name and she said that Daddy Dr. Mizrahi gave it to her. She said that he gave her a name and that he gave her sisters Cecily and Cathe their names too.
I felt... very sad when she said that, but I did not make a sad face. I know that Daddy Dr. Mizrahi Daddy did not give me a name but he gave them names. Today in the lab I almost asked him if would give me a name but-- I couldn't. That would be distracting. I must focus on my purpose and so I did not ask him.
Afterwards I talked to Dr. Meredith and she thought for a long time but then she said that she would call me "Isobel." She said that she had a dear friend on her home planet who had that name, and she passed away. "Passed away" is like being deactivated for humans.
I think this name is very beautiful and I am so happy that Dr. Meredith feels like I am good enough to have it.
When I am feeling sad I think I will just say my name. "Isobel." Isobel. Isobel. This name gives me a feeling that is so happy! I love this name because it is me. 99-Series Realian "Kirschwasser" #033 is me but Isobel is also me! I hope that now that I have a name I can better understand things like free will.
Today when I saw Dr. Sellers he was walking and talking with Dr. Winnicot. He asked me where I was going and I said back to my quarters and he said something to Dr. Winnicot that I did not hear. It was probably mean but I do not care because I know something they do not! which is that I have a name.
I can't wait to tell Nielsen and Febronia another day. I wonder if I can tell Dr. Mizrahi Daddy about this?