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i seem to be in a ridiculous amount of pain, both physically and mentally.
after so much time, mere walls can convince your mind that you are in extreme agony, and that is how i feel. raw, desolate and broken.
back in worcester, and immediately feel the same feeling that i honestly feel everywhere i go. it's as if i can't claim to have any physical space in which i feel like i actually belong. there are moments where i feel comfortable and content, mostly when i'm in the same house as my younger brother, but even then it just feels sort of temporary.
i'm gonna have a real problem settling back here with all i saw over the holiday. i'm surrounded by people, and yet i've never felt more by myself. i despereately want a healthy mindset again.