From a good week to a bad week
Learning that I am writing for the Texas Tornado on Pro Hockey News was my high of this month so far and I was so happy that I got this position. It was one of my dreams and something that I work hard for. I thought after this that all the shitty stuff that had happen before would just go away. I am learning that there are more important things than hockey and writing. That friends and family is important too.
Monday I found out that my friend was battling Ovarian Cancer then on Valentines Day that she passed away from it. I am just numb, shocked and hurting. I am afraid that I am going break down. I just don't know how to deal with it. I know my friend would want me to live my dream and be happy. I just want her to be alive and healthy. I want her to live her dreams.
I don't know what to do. I just feel lost right now. I am hoping that someone will guide me through this. I wish I had someone that was there for me. Not a girl but a guy like boyfriend or husband. Someone that I could hold and love. Someone I could go to besides my best friend and other friends.
I can write stuff when I am emotional and sad but I don't want to write this series that I am working hard on. I want to give up on it. I want to just forget about everything but I gotta move on. Sorry about this but I am so shocked and sad that my friend is gone. I didn't expect this to happen after all the good stuff that was happening.
I guess I can keep writing for Pro Hockey News and my Ryder series that I am currently writing about. I am just hoping that someday that they will find a cure for cancer so that many people don't die from it. Screw cancer. Find a cure before more people die from it. I am praying that they find a cure and praying for my friend's family to get through this.
Monday I found out that my friend was battling Ovarian Cancer then on Valentines Day that she passed away from it. I am just numb, shocked and hurting. I am afraid that I am going break down. I just don't know how to deal with it. I know my friend would want me to live my dream and be happy. I just want her to be alive and healthy. I want her to live her dreams.
I don't know what to do. I just feel lost right now. I am hoping that someone will guide me through this. I wish I had someone that was there for me. Not a girl but a guy like boyfriend or husband. Someone that I could hold and love. Someone I could go to besides my best friend and other friends.
I can write stuff when I am emotional and sad but I don't want to write this series that I am working hard on. I want to give up on it. I want to just forget about everything but I gotta move on. Sorry about this but I am so shocked and sad that my friend is gone. I didn't expect this to happen after all the good stuff that was happening.
I guess I can keep writing for Pro Hockey News and my Ryder series that I am currently writing about. I am just hoping that someday that they will find a cure for cancer so that many people don't die from it. Screw cancer. Find a cure before more people die from it. I am praying that they find a cure and praying for my friend's family to get through this.